22nd Feb 1990
Loner.
Predictable BUT random
Full time care giver of MJPP 我要做纸片人!!
Red & Black is the BEST colour combi=)
I love taking pikchas of whatever that catches my eye!
Learn with me=)
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dying to have...
no needs, all wants!!
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♥ DO WELL ENOUGH FOR As TO GET MYSELF INTO THE UNIVERSITY!!! (my only need)
♥ it started with a kiss VCD/DVD! ♥ Growing in Grace Age 10 precious moment figurine! THANKS to my dajie!
♥ they kiss again DVD!!
♥ EVERYTHING with DOMO on it! haha
♥ the secret (book)
♥ the rise of obama (book)
♥ whatever you think, think the opposite (book)
♥ 1 litre of tears VCD/DVD! THANKS singyen!
♥ a new wallet!! Thanks jiejie!=))
♥ ISWAK ost
♥ mont blanc starwalker to be forever in stock for me
♥ a companion other than pangpang
♥ ipod classic (have been trying to save for one) THANKS to JYJR and my bank
♥ a recording stick samsung U4 !!!
♥ mayday's concert!
♥ Casio keyboard :D
♥ 2009 diary ♥ a party at kbox
♥ A backpack got a duffel bag instead=)
♥ Portable Dvd player.
♥ A bowling pin! ♥ TKA picture book ♥ JJ Lin's compilation CD
♥ they kiss again ost thanks XUAN!!! big enough?! ahah=)
♥ a life size plushie settled for mumu.. mum ALMOST killed me, but nope.. thanks to his blur face, he's quite well liked
BISHHHH..
to be completed
single dad in love fated to love you absolute boyfriend hotshot attention please doing up the book for baby beethoven virus thanks for the memories the lost boy long vacation rolling love bull fighting Honey and Clover a man named dave love or bread Mysterious Incredible Terminator Miss No Good full house x-family mastering an jing buying a chirstmas suit for pangpang iryu my girl hana kimi (J version) Nodame cantabile Kindaichi Shonen no Jikenbo 2 Kindaichi Shonen no Jikenbo 3 proposal daisukensen Mercy (jodi picoult) the tenth circle keeping faith eleven minutes (paulo coelho) kurosagi thanks for the memories PS i love u diary of a wimpy kid twilight new moon eclipse breaking dawn the last lecture departures night at the museum 2 ToGetHer
unwatched movies
night at the museum blood diamond the leap years the warlords quill spider lilies sleeping bride kungfu panda P.S i love you evan almighty road to Guantanamo music and lyrics its fantastic! 200 pounds beauty howls moving castle an inconvenient truth 色戒 Lust caution by Ang Lee the home song stories CJ 7 Joy luck club! the kiterunner twillight moulin rouge grave of the fireflies 10 promises to my dog protege kungfu dunk 40 year-old virgin its nice, but crude! and the ending spoilt it all! 父子 Anna and anna love matters the curious case of benjamin button slumdog millionaire marley and me little red flowers little prince movie happy feet bolt august rush crash nanny mcphee babel nobody knows departures confessions of a shopaholic and ROLLING!
good books
little prince kiterunner the child called it the alchemist sing to the dawn eleven minutes
good movies
i believe good movies will prove its worthiness without sound, shine without light and stand out without arrogance!
-brokeback mountain(if its m18/r21 for the gay cause, i think is STUPID! cause it had deprived ppl of a good movie!) -the way home -music and lyrics (its lovely, it surely is!) -blood diamond -Secret by jay chou -diva, ah hey by charlene choi -CJ 7 -Wait Till You're Older -yours, mine and ours -alvin and the chipmunks -Helen the baby fox -Cars -blades of glory -stranger than fiction -finding nemo -harry potter series -bruce almighty -Death Note 2 -slumdog millionaire -10 promises to my dog
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first week of school, i was "threatened" by all the "if-you-dont-fulfil-this-or-that", you are so dead kind of words. briefings, lessons, everything tells me about grades and attendance. human beings make mistakes dont they, i dont expect a school without rules, but 3 lates equates to an absence. and 5 absence, you fail that module. how great to start a new term. i am not deterred though, its just parts and parcels of life.. though one frigging discouraging teacher and tonnes of general education modules didnt help, AT ALL.
i am glad i enrolled into this course, because i am sure this is what i wanted to do, now. however, that discouraging teacher just had to be from a general ed module which didnt have anything gotta do with psyc at all. shes like a.. if i could put it in better words, i wouldnt have used - WITCH. shes teaching music and she teaches the wrong stuff, shes egoistic, she laughs her mistakes off and magnify people's mistake by a 1000 fold. how nice. not everyone learned music, learning a new thing takes time and she sniggers at mistake my coursemates made with discouraging tones and very evil sneers. and when someone points out her mistake, she laughed it off. being in that class really disgusts me.
other lessons are fine although i tend to want to doze off during math.. LOL.. not so much of a sciency person i guess but psyc is science. BOO.. haha..
i am ALWAYS looking forward to wednesday now. i am very eager to do well in everything, now that i am starting things fresh. i love to sing and i am attending lessons. i am pragmatic, i dont think of going or having the best stuff when i couldnt even afford it. and i dont regard myself as settling for the second best because i didnt wish to spend on the so called best. i am just going to get the very best out of whatever i am doing now. i love my instrutor(s). people and connections are really important to me, otherwise, i cant strive.
its a new beginning, take it higher and further.
although i dont pray, you would know that i always keep some people at the back of my mind. and dorc, you are one of them. cheers for A levels, you will be fine! all the best yo! :D and in that notebook, you mentioned that letter. what if i *quote* leave earth *unquote* first?? thats unfair to me right! you dodo.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
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8/30/2009 10:36:00 PM
checking back with reality, GMX is starting school - with her bangs -.- timetable is alright as of now. monday is a sad day but i am looking forward to much more. lets just hope that the first lesson wouldnt be a b*tch LOL because i have until 5pm in school. if the first lesson is a spoiler, i might not be able to continue the day.
had fun, a week prior to the start of school. a day with horsin and ah choy, Mayday's concert and kbox with yc and es:) and the school reopening gift by dorc which she brought it personally to my block! >.< should have fun in school or i will let many people down, the first one, being myself. managed to make myself really tired so (I HOPE) i could get to sleep and not miss a bus tmr or any school day after tmr for 3 years :D i hope i would be told what is expected of me tmr, so at least i could render myself into the condition properly.
lets hope that my classmates are a fun bunch and nice to work with :D
on the 22nd, 2 days ago as of 3.40am 24th Aug, GMX went out with ah choy and horsin :D there's something wrong with GMX these days. she gets to FM super early, show up for meeting early too! i am not trying to say theres anything wrong with being early.. just that its ME, thats why it looks wrong.
went pasta cafe, cause ah choy rejected the other 2 suggestions - V8 and Astons. with horsin, ah choy and GMX around, theres nothing like quietness -.- LOL.. sometimes both of them gets too excited and will start speaking loudly! haha.. so they were telling me things like MOUNTAIN climbing.. which i said i would never ever want to try. i hate to be tossed into predicaments by myself, so its not an activity for me.. especially with the risk of slipping off wooden plank and being washed away by currents, or missing a step to fall off the mountain. NO WAY! went kino, then ion. and ION, didnt WOW me at all -.- at least when i went into ILUMA i drew in some air because of the escalator.. the only fun at ION was camwhoring under the shade of that gigantic nutmeg (at least i think its a nutmeg. but ah choy or horsin said its avocado) shopped around for a bit and headed to fareast, in search of my life saving beanie.. some miscommunication lead me and ah choy to JP while horsin had something on. and so, we walked around and went home
yesterday, about 15 hours ago, met ah choy again, for "the proposal" and i would say this movie, is worth the tix. at least give them some credits for those jokes. i laughed my lungs out, almost. there was this part i couldnt stop laughing for about 3 minutes, trembling in the chair with tears at the corner of my eyes. it was that funny. so its a MUST WATCH.. i think i am getting the DVD and make it my favourite human movie of 2009, and "UP", my favourite cartoon movie. LOL.. and this is to blame the bad selections of movie with the 2 guys earlier this year :P
BAKERZIN vivo for desert >.<>had my first 7th lunar month dinner at pasir panjang in 3 years. i dont feel embarassed that my mum works in a wholesale centre, a so called market just that its not something i would go around telling everyone i see.. because if you know her jobscope, its not fun. countless phonecalls everyday to coordinate the schedules for deliveries, packing and orders. i didnt like this kind of noisy events if u know me well enough just that mummy said ah gong asked if i would go. he always have that amount of power on me, even though i dont see him often because he works EVERYDAY at the age of 82, so other than being at work, he has to get some sleep..
mummy came to get me at vivo after that, and ah gong was in the car. as a standard way of saying hi, he would always take your hand and hold it in his, just so that he could feel you, because his sight isnt that strong anymore. i would always leave it there until he decides to let go of me because its rude, at least thats what i think, to take my hand away. in actual fact, i dont see the need to retreat anyway. but this car ride to his office is beyond words. he held my hand as soon as i popped into the car. and along the way, he commented that my hand was very cold (because vivo was cold) and so he cupped his hands over mine to help me keep warm. i love that feeling, seriously. i think gramps are never afraid to show their affection to their grandchildren, theres nothing to hold back, because as far as i remembered what mummy told me, he was a really really strict father. and i dont think he would ever do sth like that, before. all i can say is that, i love this man, he rocks big time.
i went to the place which was once so familiar and i felt priviledged. everyone knows my mum and ah gong so they would come around and make some talks. i didnt like this though.. LOL but i remembered those times i made big fuss in hope that mummy would bring me to work. the memories with the stray dogs that the company reared, the fear i had for ringing telephones whenever my mum leaves the office.. but my proudest knowledge is that i have a grandfather who takes pride in whatever he does, especially his beloved business thats why he works everyday, as long as he could manage. he have got enough money to stay at home to enjoy blissful life with 2 great-grandchildren but he slogs it out at the market, because its what he had worked hard for, the past few decades and he didnt want to let go.
my sister guessed the right reason why i am attending music lessons now, a part is to improve myself, a part is because i want to be the best because of this man, whom i respect greatly, next february.
aug 1st, yesterday, GMX went to IMM with eesuan for wilber's auto session. but the poor guy hurt his fingers so he couldnt sign and instead, he gave FREE HUGS! :D i prefer having his signature cause theres a possibility you forget how a hug feels but you will never forget that he signed your album. lol. so thats how GMX got a hug. how many times in a lifetime can you actually hug your idol? he is like one of the very few people i am actually willing to queue up for because it has became a habit of 6-7 years!! :D
but the best part was, i met coffeebean boy again.. after 8 months i think.. he flashed an UBER charming smile at me! :D woots.. which is why its 5am, and i am not in bed! hahahaha.. i feel like i am floating >.<
Monday, July 20, 2009
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7/20/2009 09:40:00 PM
there are so many things beyond our control.
some didnt even occur as a consequence.
i am learning to take things in my stride.
life is too fragile for my liking.
i fear, i am frightened, sometimes i cry
because i am not an adaptor
Monday, July 13, 2009
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7/13/2009 02:05:00 AM
So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
11th july, my boy celebrated his 3rd birthday with a treat to his first ever concert=) was happy, but not very.. this was the picture taken at V8 a week before he turned 3=) he needs to know that he is loved.. because i cant say that enough..
loose a little control, you will hurt someone close.
loose a little sense, you will lose someone dear.
and if you were to lose your ability to rationalise things, you will kill someone clear.
the consequences are ours to bear.
i have given up, and i wont look back, anymore.
something just died inside me yesterday. you saw her to it.
the one reason i like that place so much was not because i can get anything i want within my budget, not because everyone felt like i was a priviledged class there, not because i got that nice apartment to shelter me from scary nights and tough days.. a main part is, they have strong pride for their country, for their language and for their living environment..
i felt like the protagonist in "the missionary" in mr boey's poem when i was there.. the people there were the only ones who believed that we came from a place worth the WOW.. i didnt believe so.. the thais have pride for their language which i loved.. i went there, as a friend, as a visitor, as a half blood tourist.. i wanted to blend in, i learnt and spoke their language in bits and pieces within a few days.. they werent those people who will sneer at ur inaccuracy.. they were people who were proud that you spoke THEIR language.. they were almost always trying to tell us things known to us in english, in their tongue.. which i felt very glad.. its because of this, i wasnt afraid to speak their tongue in a foreign land, sth which i usually didnt or wouldnt do in other countries.. in our place, where we do not have our own language, where we borrowed international language yet DID NOT speak well, had the guts to tease the foreigners who couldnt speak, or spoke badly instead of giving encouragement or offering aids.. i felt ashamed.. and at the same time, more thankful to be at minburi, instead of central of bangkok city where the difference could be drastically felt..
i had to admit that i was a spoilt brat there.. while picking the rubbish, i couldnt allow myself to be bare handed like the kids.. because in those heaps, there were tortoise, centipedes, earthworm, termites and others unknown to me.. i just couldnt do it no matter how hard i tried.. i am just a true blue spoilt city child..
there were times during the trip i felt like crying and in fact, i cried twice.. it was partly because i missed home but it was not because it was tough being in that environment, weeding or picking rubbish, getting mosquito bites more that my 19 yrs combined.. it was my travel mates.. their couple like bickers which are so common and frequent to them had taken a toll on me, badly.. when she acts up unneccessarily, he was sometimes one who accommodates appropriately, but otherwise, i am just the one who suffers. he wasnt any easier to handle.. no wonder they are a pair.. its tiring to act like a fool in front of 2 childishly behaving adults, because it was their way of communication.. there was almost no such day where a day went by without either of them getting angry.. and i stupidly, almost always had to be involved although their temper were like as quick as a sports car.. at the 10th day, i was beyond my means and i just couldnt care.. i totally stopped talking to both of them, though i occasionally talked to my sis.. and it became my fault with the guy.. and 2 of them just combined forces on me although it was my sis who applied pressure on me.. its was really like crap, so much that if i have the means, i will fly home IMMEDIATELY.. the nice apartment was no longer the shelter and as long as i have the means, i will avoid seeing the guy without making him feel like i am ANGRY with him -__-" because i wasnt.. just that they were too irritating for my liking! or rather, i was not that receptive to their modes of communication.. through bickerings and shouting at each other..
life at the community wasnt that cool either, the kids there, being kids, and on top of all, non (weakling) city kids, they play rough.. only 1 till the very end stayed through with me as a friend who didnt do anything crappy to me.. 1 child i fear mostwas the crappiest of all kids.. shes like a terror.. someone you cant mess with.. my male travel mate messed with her, and till the last day of the trip, she gave him shit.. and at the start, the reason why i hate him so much was because he wasnt even gracious enough to ignore the kid and instead aggravated her by doing stupid things which triggered her to do irritating stuff like slapping him and using those menacing stares.. although its not towards me, i felt the revulsion. and during the trip she was like hugging me on purpose, so tight that its was not for fun, its to hurt you on purpose, playfully in a way but with her knowing its not pleasant.. and thats why i ran away from her.. until the last day where they threw a party for us, she really got onto my nerves and i used the word "stop" in thai which i never meant to use.. because i didnt know if its rude or anything.. and fortunately she stopped.. BUT came back again after awhile -__-"
the bads aside, i really enjoyed the trip because of the adults.. over there, i was able to chat like an adult with the people as friends though.. its like they will listen to what u have to say and hhelp u along the way.. chok, this guy who was almost always with us at the community was really a bunch of fun.. he was always saying things like "lets go bangsaen (seaside) together" and i said ok! before he said "just you and me" -__-" lol.. he's really humorous and he's a kid of 2 at 27 years old!!! so cool! i want to return to that place, prolly a year later, so that its not too soon for them to feel "EH THIS PERSON AGAIN!" or too long for them to forget who we are! :D there were so much cool stuff there i couldnt pen down because it was poignant moments to be felt by those there.. little interactions with lots of understanding and sign languages, blending into the community with the local locals.. gaining their trust wasnt a simple job.. it requires us to be tactful.. because afterall, we are invaders.. but they were really good hosts=) gracious to us, foreigners..
9th day.. i am getting homesick! BOO.. its really contradicting.. i really really love this place.. but probably its time to return to reality.. i dont belong here.. kids here play rough although they are very kind to us.. to them, we are FARANGS ( which means foreigners), sometimes friends.. we can pull through a conversation which lots of sign languages and some understanding but how long can this last.. my thai is improving from the interaction with the kids.. but its far from being proficient.. thanks to the really nice apartment, i survived this far.. but everyday at night, i will still miss home, on the other hand, thinking of how much i will miss this place after i am gone.. I MISS ZELIA TAY lotssssss=( this time, when i am back, surely will be quarantined for a few days.. we are skipping city perhaps, to minimise chances of crowd and falling sick.. but over here theres only carrefour ( which things are so ex, they match up with those in singapore! ) and BIG C!! i get to eat rice everyday! :D and lots of NAMTHIP! my best friend here! HAHA=) ok i think u wont get the joke.. but i will upload pics when i am back in singapore..
yosh minasan! omg, i meant.. SAWATDEE KHA!! GMX is checking in with CHANNEL SINGAPORE from Minburi, thailand.. its one hour slower over here=) everything is cool! AND i am VERY VERY thankful for the decent lodging! its kinda hardwork over here.. and i am glad that, I THINK, the worst is over.. loads of weeding, clearing up rubbish and all.. its no joke.. there are SO MUCH its not even funny=( there were many parts of the community that reeks of revolting odour.. that makes me feel like retching without fail.. but i am kind of getting used to it..
food wise, they are similar to ours.. but their spices are NO JOKE~~ like seriously.. i had this spicy drumlet from KFC, and it burnt in my tongue for more than 15 minutes, with me downing a glass of coke and ALL the ice in it.. so now i know that the spices in singapore are so much for fun, and dont take the spicy food here without some caution..
i think this trip is really cool, cause we are making a difference to the community.. furthermore, i got to interact with the locals.. which means, we actually learn some thai in order to communicate better=) feels more MACHI! :D the people here are really cool.. and the kids too! they forced me to remove my beanie:D they meant fun i know but omg.. short of feeling like a transvestite.. anyway, gmx is quite popular in thai.. so maybe i will not come back.. haha.. i dont have any friends in singapore.. but i made so many here=) LOL! will check back again, probably with some pictures!
3. What is the name you wish you had? if u ask me, i will tell u i love my name
4. What is your birthday month? February
5. What is your birth stone? amethyst (Es's help)
6. What day were you born on? 22nd
7. What time were you born? 1244
8. What is your favourite color? royal purple (i have been adding the royal recently because i want you to know that i dont really like yam purple.. its poster colour!)
9. What is your favourite food? sushi
10. What is your favourite drink? iced lemon tea and yakult
11. What is your favourite snack? chocolate: toberone (for now), chips: calbee spicy chips
12. What is your favourite fruit? if u say favouriteS.. its watermelon, sweet guava, persimmon
13. What is your favorite comfort food? rice
14. What is your favourite season? as long as it doesnt scorch
15. What is your favourite time of the day? twilight. HAHA.. i mean after midnight
16. What is your favourite hobby? do lifeless stuffs (like playing fb, watching videos), or sing to irritate my sisters (and now my niece)
17. What is your favourite channel on TV? dont really watch tv now
18. What is your favourite Language? favouriteS: french and jap
19. What is your favourite Genre of songs?
anything thats not hard on the ears
20. What is your favourite type of books? non fiction written in fiction forms
21. What is your favourite type of movies? funneh, touching
22. What is your favourite type of dramas? i watch if the cast or storyline appeals to me=)
23. What is your favourite type of jewelry? watches if u consider that jewelry
Now, answer the questions honestly from here.
24. What is the thing you look for in friends? engaging and willing to fill me up with interesting stories to begin the friendship
25. What is the thing you look for in a good friend? understanding.. different people has different needs
26. What is the thing you look for in a best friend? will give me freedom when i need to be alone (in other words, knowing my emotional habits) and offer me comfort when i feel weak and helpless (thats a lil idealistic though)
27. What is the thing you look for in the opposite sex (in r/s terms)? i need a guy who is not governed by his Y chromosomes (i only know 2 in my life so far and i can NEVER legally be with him one of them and the other one is a little gay. HAHA.) preferably pleasant looking=)
28. What is the thing you look for in a relationship? trust, relentless support and unyielding fidelity towards me and him(the latter sounds a little silly but YA)
29. Have you been in a relationship before? yes
30. Are you currently in one? no
31. Then, do you hope to be in one? maybe not NOW.. (tmr?)
32. (If no to 30) Do you have a crush? feeling very void of passion now! haha..
33. Any of your friends in a relationship? wah.. pangpang and his piglet (son can consider as friend?)
34. Do you think that any of your friend's other half cute? hmm piglet is pretty cute i would say.. but my boy is cuter!
35. Do you think that any of your friend's other half are hot? nope.. piglet is pink and furry
36. Do you think that any of your friend's other half are not compatible with them? my boy deserves someone better! HAHA:P
Now, back to yourself.
37. How would you describe yourself? normal, maybe just a LIL bit abnormal. BOO
38. What is the worst thing people would think of you? that i am proud because i am tall?! HAHA
i was so happy for her! as u may know, she isnt blessed with the best appearance that could render her some help in her talent.. but the gift in her voice totally rocked my socks inside out.. i mean, her confidence and great personality was why she was teased and joked around, and that was why i was so upset for her when the judges threw those irritating looks and expressions at her before her song.. however, that is what makes THE LADY..
Amanda Holden: i honestly think that we were all being very cynical and that was the biggest wake up call, ever
i seriously felt so proud for her sake, because her voice made the judge say that.. the judge was had her hands resting on the back of her head, waiting for a good joke or something.. i love her STUNNED expression when susan boyle sang.. i mean i really felt happy for the woman..
she did not have the best pitching, best stage appearance.. but she's definitely got one of the best voice and character + personality.. she was AWESOME! the song she sang cost me my tears when i heard it.. i thought of the lyrics as she sang for herself to live her dream.. i was enthralled and tears rolled along..
