Parts and PUZZLES of growing up

2009-10-11T22:09:00.002+08:00

2009-09-05T17:35:00.003+08:00

i love what i am doing right now.

first week of school, i was "threatened" by all the "if-you-dont-fulfil-this-or-that", you are so dead kind of words. briefings, lessons, everything tells me about grades and attendance. human beings make mistakes dont they, i dont expect a school without rules, but 3 lates equates to an absence. and 5 absence, you fail that module. how great to start a new term. i am not deterred though, its just parts and parcels of life.. though one frigging discouraging teacher and tonnes of general education modules didnt help, AT ALL.

i am glad i enrolled into this course, because i am sure this is what i wanted to do, now. however, that discouraging teacher just had to be from a general ed module which didnt have anything gotta do with psyc at all. shes like a.. if i could put it in better words, i wouldnt have used - WITCH. shes teaching music and she teaches the wrong stuff, shes egoistic, she laughs her mistakes off and magnify people's mistake by a 1000 fold. how nice. not everyone learned music, learning a new thing takes time and she sniggers at mistake my coursemates made with discouraging tones and very evil sneers. and when someone points out her mistake, she laughed it off. being in that class really disgusts me.

other lessons are fine although i tend to want to doze off during math.. LOL.. not so much of a sciency person i guess but psyc is science. BOO.. haha..

i am ALWAYS looking forward to wednesday now. i am very eager to do well in everything, now that i am starting things fresh. i love to sing and i am attending lessons. i am pragmatic, i dont think of going or having the best stuff when i couldnt even afford it. and i dont regard myself as settling for the second best because i didnt wish to spend on the so called best. i am just going to get the very best out of whatever i am doing now. i love my instrutor(s). people and connections are really important to me, otherwise, i cant strive.

its a new beginning, take it higher and further.

although i dont pray, you would know that i always keep some people at the back of my mind. and dorc, you are one of them. cheers for A levels, you will be fine! all the best yo! :D and in that notebook, you mentioned that letter. what if i *quote* leave earth *unquote* first?? thats unfair to me right! you dodo.

2009-08-30T22:36:00.003+08:00

checking back with reality, GMX is starting school - with her bangs -.- timetable is alright as of now. monday is a sad day but i am looking forward to much more. lets just hope that the first lesson wouldnt be a b*tch LOL because i have until 5pm in school. if the first lesson is a spoiler, i might not be able to continue the day.

had fun, a week prior to the start of school. a day with horsin and ah choy, Mayday's concert and kbox with yc and es:) and the school reopening gift by dorc which she brought it personally to my block! >.< should have fun in school or i will let many people down, the first one, being myself. managed to make myself really tired so (I HOPE) i could get to sleep and not miss a bus tmr or any school day after tmr for 3 years :D i hope i would be told what is expected of me tmr, so at least i could render myself into the condition properly.

lets hope that my classmates are a fun bunch and nice to work with :D

goodnite!

2009-08-27T18:56:00.001+08:00

Perplexed Girl: WHY AM I DIFFERENT FROM OTHERS?

Wise old man: WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE LIKE OTHERS?

2009-08-24T01:46:00.003+08:00

2 days of fun.

on the 22nd, 2 days ago as of 3.40am 24th Aug, GMX went out with ah choy and horsin :D there's something wrong with GMX these days. she gets to FM super early, show up for meeting early too! i am not trying to say theres anything wrong with being early.. just that its ME, thats why it looks wrong.

went pasta cafe, cause ah choy rejected the other 2 suggestions - V8 and Astons. with horsin, ah choy and GMX around, theres nothing like quietness -.- LOL.. sometimes both of them gets too excited and will start speaking loudly! haha.. so they were telling me things like MOUNTAIN climbing.. which i said i would never ever want to try. i hate to be tossed into predicaments by myself, so its not an activity for me.. especially with the risk of slipping off wooden plank and being washed away by currents, or missing a step to fall off the mountain. NO WAY! went kino, then ion. and ION, didnt WOW me at all -.- at least when i went into ILUMA i drew in some air because of the escalator.. the only fun at ION was camwhoring under the shade of that gigantic nutmeg (at least i think its a nutmeg. but ah choy or horsin said its avocado) shopped around for a bit and headed to fareast, in search of my life saving beanie.. some miscommunication lead me and ah choy to JP while horsin had something on. and so, we walked around and went home

yesterday, about 15 hours ago, met ah choy again, for "the proposal" and i would say this movie, is worth the tix. at least give them some credits for those jokes. i laughed my lungs out, almost. there was this part i couldnt stop laughing for about 3 minutes, trembling in the chair with tears at the corner of my eyes. it was that funny. so its a MUST WATCH.. i think i am getting the DVD and make it my favourite human movie of 2009, and "UP", my favourite cartoon movie. LOL.. and this is to blame the bad selections of movie with the 2 guys earlier this year :P

BAKERZIN vivo for desert >.<>had my first 7th lunar month dinner at pasir panjang in 3 years. i dont feel embarassed that my mum works in a wholesale centre, a so called market just that its not something i would go around telling everyone i see.. because if you know her jobscope, its not fun. countless phonecalls everyday to coordinate the schedules for deliveries, packing and orders. i didnt like this kind of noisy events if u know me well enough just that mummy said ah gong asked if i would go. he always have that amount of power on me, even though i dont see him often because he works EVERYDAY at the age of 82, so other than being at work, he has to get some sleep..

mummy came to get me at vivo after that, and ah gong was in the car. as a standard way of saying hi, he would always take your hand and hold it in his, just so that he could feel you, because his sight isnt that strong anymore. i would always leave it there until he decides to let go of me because its rude, at least thats what i think, to take my hand away. in actual fact, i dont see the need to retreat anyway. but this car ride to his office is beyond words. he held my hand as soon as i popped into the car. and along the way, he commented that my hand was very cold (because vivo was cold) and so he cupped his hands over mine to help me keep warm. i love that feeling, seriously. i think gramps are never afraid to show their affection to their grandchildren, theres nothing to hold back, because as far as i remembered what mummy told me, he was a really really strict father. and i dont think he would ever do sth like that, before. all i can say is that, i love this man, he rocks big time.

i went to the place which was once so familiar and i felt priviledged. everyone knows my mum and ah gong so they would come around and make some talks. i didnt like this though.. LOL but i remembered those times i made big fuss in hope that mummy would bring me to work. the memories with the stray dogs that the company reared, the fear i had for ringing telephones whenever my mum leaves the office.. but my proudest knowledge is that i have a grandfather who takes pride in whatever he does, especially his beloved business thats why he works everyday, as long as he could manage. he have got enough money to stay at home to enjoy blissful life with 2 great-grandchildren but he slogs it out at the market, because its what he had worked hard for, the past few decades and he didnt want to let go.

my sister guessed the right reason why i am attending music lessons now, a part is to improve myself, a part is because i want to be the best because of this man, whom i respect greatly, next february.

2009-08-07T04:16:00.002+08:00

Please find me again, like you did.

this is a weird feeling i have never experienced.

i dont even know you, havent even talked to you,

but i have the urge to befriend you.

i know i can find you if i really really want to

because if you really want something, the whole world conspires to let you have it,

depending on how much you want it, how badly you need it

but,

i am not sure if u feel the same thats why i am holding back.

know what? i have a feeling we are going to meet again. i still believe i am going to see you again! :)

2009-08-02T04:55:00.002+08:00

GMX is star struck!

aug 1st, yesterday, GMX went to IMM with eesuan for wilber's auto session. but the poor guy hurt his fingers so he couldnt sign and instead, he gave FREE HUGS! :D i prefer having his signature cause theres a possibility you forget how a hug feels but you will never forget that he signed your album. lol. so thats how GMX got a hug. how many times in a lifetime can you actually hug your idol? he is like one of the very few people i am actually willing to queue up for because it has became a habit of 6-7 years!! :D

but the best part was, i met coffeebean boy again.. after 8 months i think.. he flashed an UBER charming smile at me! :D woots.. which is why its 5am, and i am not in bed! hahahaha.. i feel like i am floating >.<

2009-07-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

there are so many things beyond our control.

some didnt even occur as a consequence.

i am learning to take things in my stride.

life is too fragile for my liking.

i fear, i am frightened, sometimes i cry

because i am not an adaptor

2009-07-13T02:05:00.004+08:00

So I would choose to be with you

That's if the choice were mine to make

11th july, my boy celebrated his 3rd birthday with a treat to his first ever concert=) was happy, but not very.. this was the picture taken at V8 a week before he turned 3=) he needs to know that he is loved.. because i cant say that enough..

loose a little control, you will hurt someone close.

loose a little sense, you will lose someone dear.

and if you were to lose your ability to rationalise things, you will kill someone clear.

the consequences are ours to bear.

i have given up, and i wont look back, anymore.

something just died inside me yesterday. you saw her to it.

2009-06-26T02:37:00.004+08:00

MINBURI REVIEW

the one reason i like that place so much was not because i can get anything i want within my budget, not because everyone felt like i was a priviledged class there, not because i got that nice apartment to shelter me from scary nights and tough days.. a main part is, they have strong pride for their country, for their language and for their living environment..

i felt like the protagonist in "the missionary" in mr boey's poem when i was there.. the people there were the only ones who believed that we came from a place worth the WOW.. i didnt believe so.. the thais have pride for their language which i loved.. i went there, as a friend, as a visitor, as a half blood tourist.. i wanted to blend in, i learnt and spoke their language in bits and pieces within a few days.. they werent those people who will sneer at ur inaccuracy.. they were people who were proud that you spoke THEIR language.. they were almost always trying to tell us things known to us in english, in their tongue.. which i felt very glad.. its because of this, i wasnt afraid to speak their tongue in a foreign land, sth which i usually didnt or wouldnt do in other countries.. in our place, where we do not have our own language, where we borrowed international language yet DID NOT speak well, had the guts to tease the foreigners who couldnt speak, or spoke badly instead of giving encouragement or offering aids.. i felt ashamed.. and at the same time, more thankful to be at minburi, instead of central of bangkok city where the difference could be drastically felt..

i had to admit that i was a spoilt brat there.. while picking the rubbish, i couldnt allow myself to be bare handed like the kids.. because in those heaps, there were tortoise, centipedes, earthworm, termites and others unknown to me.. i just couldnt do it no matter how hard i tried.. i am just a true blue spoilt city child..

there were times during the trip i felt like crying and in fact, i cried twice.. it was partly because i missed home but it was not because it was tough being in that environment, weeding or picking rubbish, getting mosquito bites more that my 19 yrs combined.. it was my travel mates.. their couple like bickers which are so common and frequent to them had taken a toll on me, badly.. when she acts up unneccessarily, he was sometimes one who accommodates appropriately, but otherwise, i am just the one who suffers. he wasnt any easier to handle.. no wonder they are a pair.. its tiring to act like a fool in front of 2 childishly behaving adults, because it was their way of communication.. there was almost no such day where a day went by without either of them getting angry.. and i stupidly, almost always had to be involved although their temper were like as quick as a sports car.. at the 10th day, i was beyond my means and i just couldnt care.. i totally stopped talking to both of them, though i occasionally talked to my sis.. and it became my fault with the guy.. and 2 of them just combined forces on me although it was my sis who applied pressure on me.. its was really like crap, so much that if i have the means, i will fly home IMMEDIATELY.. the nice apartment was no longer the shelter and as long as i have the means, i will avoid seeing the guy without making him feel like i am ANGRY with him -__-" because i wasnt.. just that they were too irritating for my liking! or rather, i was not that receptive to their modes of communication.. through bickerings and shouting at each other..

life at the community wasnt that cool either, the kids there, being kids, and on top of all, non (weakling) city kids, they play rough.. only 1 till the very end stayed through with me as a friend who didnt do anything crappy to me.. 1 child i fear mostwas the crappiest of all kids.. shes like a terror.. someone you cant mess with.. my male travel mate messed with her, and till the last day of the trip, she gave him shit.. and at the start, the reason why i hate him so much was because he wasnt even gracious enough to ignore the kid and instead aggravated her by doing stupid things which triggered her to do irritating stuff like slapping him and using those menacing stares.. although its not towards me, i felt the revulsion. and during the trip she was like hugging me on purpose, so tight that its was not for fun, its to hurt you on purpose, playfully in a way but with her knowing its not pleasant.. and thats why i ran away from her.. until the last day where they threw a party for us, she really got onto my nerves and i used the word "stop" in thai which i never meant to use.. because i didnt know if its rude or anything.. and fortunately she stopped.. BUT came back again after awhile -__-"

the bads aside, i really enjoyed the trip because of the adults.. over there, i was able to chat like an adult with the people as friends though.. its like they will listen to what u have to say and hhelp u along the way.. chok, this guy who was almost always with us at the community was really a bunch of fun.. he was always saying things like "lets go bangsaen (seaside) together" and i said ok! before he said "just you and me" -__-" lol.. he's really humorous and he's a kid of 2 at 27 years old!!! so cool! i want to return to that place, prolly a year later, so that its not too soon for them to feel "EH THIS PERSON AGAIN!" or too long for them to forget who we are! :D there were so much cool stuff there i couldnt pen down because it was poignant moments to be felt by those there.. little interactions with lots of understanding and sign languages, blending into the community with the local locals.. gaining their trust wasnt a simple job.. it requires us to be tactful.. because afterall, we are invaders.. but they were really good hosts=) gracious to us, foreigners..

minburi is loved=)

2009-06-17T12:48:00.002+08:00

I MISS HOME!!

9th day.. i am getting homesick! BOO.. its really contradicting.. i really really love this place.. but probably its time to return to reality.. i dont belong here.. kids here play rough although they are very kind to us.. to them, we are FARANGS ( which means foreigners), sometimes friends.. we can pull through a conversation which lots of sign languages and some understanding but how long can this last.. my thai is improving from the interaction with the kids.. but its far from being proficient.. thanks to the really nice apartment, i survived this far.. but everyday at night, i will still miss home, on the other hand, thinking of how much i will miss this place after i am gone.. I MISS ZELIA TAY lotssssss=( this time, when i am back, surely will be quarantined for a few days.. we are skipping city perhaps, to minimise chances of crowd and falling sick.. but over here theres only carrefour ( which things are so ex, they match up with those in singapore! ) and BIG C!! i get to eat rice everyday! :D and lots of NAMTHIP! my best friend here! HAHA=) ok i think u wont get the joke.. but i will upload pics when i am back in singapore..

I MISS HOME!! :(

2009-06-16T10:54:00.009+08:00

GMX @ minburi, thailand=)

2009-06-12T22:23:00.002+08:00

YOYOYOYO!!

yosh minasan! omg, i meant.. SAWATDEE KHA!! GMX is checking in with CHANNEL SINGAPORE from Minburi, thailand.. its one hour slower over here=) everything is cool! AND i am VERY VERY thankful for the decent lodging! its kinda hardwork over here.. and i am glad that, I THINK, the worst is over.. loads of weeding, clearing up rubbish and all.. its no joke.. there are SO MUCH its not even funny=( there were many parts of the community that reeks of revolting odour.. that makes me feel like retching without fail.. but i am kind of getting used to it..

food wise, they are similar to ours.. but their spices are NO JOKE~~ like seriously.. i had this spicy drumlet from KFC, and it burnt in my tongue for more than 15 minutes, with me downing a glass of coke and ALL the ice in it.. so now i know that the spices in singapore are so much for fun, and dont take the spicy food here without some caution..

i think this trip is really cool, cause we are making a difference to the community.. furthermore, i got to interact with the locals.. which means, we actually learn some thai in order to communicate better=) feels more MACHI! :D the people here are really cool.. and the kids too! they forced me to remove my beanie:D they meant fun i know but omg.. short of feeling like a transvestite.. anyway, gmx is quite popular in thai.. so maybe i will not come back.. haha.. i dont have any friends in singapore.. but i made so many here=) LOL! will check back again, probably with some pictures!

2009-04-20T15:37:00.003+08:00

1. What is your full name?
Mary Goh

2. What is your most common nickname?
GMX

3. What is the name you wish you had?
if u ask me, i will tell u i love my name

4. What is your birthday month?
February

5. What is your birth stone?
amethyst (Es's help)

6. What day were you born on?
22nd

7. What time were you born?
1244

8. What is your favourite color?
royal purple (i have been adding the royal recently because i want you to know that i dont really like yam purple.. its poster colour!)

9. What is your favourite food?
sushi

10. What is your favourite drink?
iced lemon tea and yakult

11. What is your favourite snack?
chocolate: toberone (for now), chips: calbee spicy chips

12. What is your favourite fruit?
if u say favouriteS.. its watermelon, sweet guava, persimmon

13. What is your favorite comfort food?
rice

14. What is your favourite season?
as long as it doesnt scorch

15. What is your favourite time of the day?
twilight. HAHA.. i mean after midnight

16. What is your favourite hobby?
do lifeless stuffs (like playing fb, watching videos), or sing to irritate my sisters (and now my niece)

17. What is your favourite channel on TV?
dont really watch tv now

18. What is your favourite Language?
favouriteS: french and jap

19. What is your favourite Genre of songs?

anything thats not hard on the ears

20. What is your favourite type of books?
non fiction written in fiction forms

21. What is your favourite type of movies?
funneh, touching

22. What is your favourite type of dramas?
i watch if the cast or storyline appeals to me=)

23. What is your favourite type of jewelry?
watches if u consider that jewelry

Now, answer the questions honestly from here.

24. What is the thing you look for in friends?
engaging and willing to fill me up with interesting stories to begin the friendship

25. What is the thing you look for in a good friend?
understanding.. different people has different needs

26. What is the thing you look for in a best friend?
will give me freedom when i need to be alone (in other words, knowing my emotional habits) and offer me comfort when i feel weak and helpless (thats a lil idealistic though)

27. What is the thing you look for in the opposite sex (in r/s terms)?
i need a guy who is not governed by his Y chromosomes (i only know 2 in my life so far and i can NEVER legally be with him one of them and the other one is a little gay. HAHA.) preferably pleasant looking=)

28. What is the thing you look for in a relationship?
trust, relentless support and unyielding fidelity towards me and him(the latter sounds a little silly but YA)

29. Have you been in a relationship before?
yes

30. Are you currently in one?
no

31. Then, do you hope to be in one?
maybe not NOW.. (tmr?)

32. (If no to 30) Do you have a crush?
feeling very void of passion now! haha..

33. Any of your friends in a relationship?
wah.. pangpang and his piglet (son can consider as friend?)

34. Do you think that any of your friend's other half cute?
hmm piglet is pretty cute i would say.. but my boy is cuter!

35. Do you think that any of your friend's other half are hot?
nope.. piglet is pink and furry

36. Do you think that any of your friend's other half are not compatible with them?
my boy deserves someone better! HAHA:P

Now, back to yourself.

37. How would you describe yourself?
normal, maybe just a LIL bit abnormal. BOO

38. What is the worst thing people would think of you?
that i am proud because i am tall?! HAHA

2009-04-20T02:23:00.003+08:00

nanny on job! (cutting myself some slack)

now, the little baby is sound asleep by my side..

isnt this how baby should behave?

so calm, so peaceful, so amiable..

i have seen her supposed best and worst in this one month,

and i cant get enough..

those cries of helplessness, and those uncontrolled smiles=)

though i have to admit there was times i wished i had some remote control to her cries..

those times i was almost "beethoven-ed" by this little baby

was probably the scariest part of this journey thus far..

she really does look like an angel, asleep..

but RUN, for your dear hearing..

when she feels uncomfortable and helpless!!!

well, isnt she KEWWTT?! haha

2009-04-18T04:21:00.001+08:00

你撐著雨傘　借我那次　已經足夠我　記得一輩子

我懂後來你不是不堅持　愛情本來就　沒萬無一失

淚水離開了　你的手指

那不如讓它　流在這信紙

我想女孩子　最貼心的是

讓愛的人選結束的方式

我最幸福的事　當過你的天使

趁鼻酸能掩飾　讓我們像當時擁抱最後一次

最幸福的事　吹蠟燭時你總為我許願的手勢

為摯愛的人　在左邊心口保留位置　是最幸福的事

可惜愛不是　童話故事　不能夠永遠　依賴著王子

才慢慢認識只剩兩個字　我怎麼忍心　為難你解釋

我最幸福的事　當過你的天使

趁鼻酸能掩飾　讓我們像當時擁抱最後一次

最幸福的事　吹蠟燭時你總為我許願的手勢

為摯愛的人　在左邊心口保留位置　是最幸福的事

那一陣子有你　美的不像現實

才慢慢認識只剩兩個字　我怎麼忍心　為難你解釋多高興每一幕都微笑著靜止

我最幸福的事　牽著你的日子

一段愛從開始　直至分開我們都對彼此誠實

最幸福的事　對那片海用力大喊永遠的樣子

想得起的事　那天和你傻笑著認識

是最幸福的事

2009-04-18T01:56:00.006+08:00

who is J.A.R now?! MAN..

SUSAN BOYLE is the TOP HIT!

i was so happy for her! as u may know, she isnt blessed with the best appearance that could render her some help in her talent.. but the gift in her voice totally rocked my socks inside out.. i mean, her confidence and great personality was why she was teased and joked around, and that was why i was so upset for her when the judges threw those irritating looks and expressions at her before her song.. however, that is what makes THE LADY..

Amanda Holden: i honestly think that we were all being very cynical and that was the biggest wake up call, ever

i seriously felt so proud for her sake, because her voice made the judge say that.. the judge was had her hands resting on the back of her head, waiting for a good joke or something.. i love her STUNNED expression when susan boyle sang.. i mean i really felt happy for the woman..

she did not have the best pitching, best stage appearance.. but she's definitely got one of the best voice and character + personality.. she was AWESOME! the song she sang cost me my tears when i heard it.. i thought of the lyrics as she sang for herself to live her dream.. i was enthralled and tears rolled along..

the link: "she is AWESOME"

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used,
And wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung,
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream he'll come to me
And we will live our lives together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms
We cannot weather...

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.

p/s: if u wonder why i compared joy with her, theres a link to her, singing cry me a river which was.. WOW

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jI2DxkrgpgQ

2009-04-09T15:47:00.002+08:00

up to some mischief again=)

2009-04-06T16:19:00.005+08:00

to my ever dearest dining table

thunderstorms gets on my nerves..
i was startled by one just now..
and i remembered those times i sat on you while it poured outside,
safe from the howling wind and lightning strikes..

which is probably why i am still alive today

LOVE,
GMX=)

2009-04-04T20:28:00.003+08:00

rules of my love

When you need me, but don't want me,
i'll always be there for you.
When you want me, but don't need me,
i'll be away

2009-03-23T00:25:00.005+08:00

HELLO WORLD!

very curious

pre-hungry look

intense look

3rd day.. still a little groggy

cheeky baby

2009-03-19T00:45:00.005+08:00

to Y:

你在哪里? 这些年来如意不如意?

还快乐? 还单纯? 还美丽?

时光如何对你?

我在这里人海中的一座岛屿

很平静风平浪静

只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你你知道吗

如果可以就让我再见你

美好微笑清澈眼睛

好确定那持离只毁了我一个而已

我很想你听见了吗? woo~

这是唯一我无解的困境

那些过去不肯过去

不管我后来遇见多少人

只能叹息都不是你

我只想爱你

我在哪里?你会不会偶尔好奇?

有没有曾经怀疑?

我说我会忘记只是种好意

love, G

2009-03-16T14:25:00.002+08:00

Pisces
The Fishes

February 19 - March 20

The twelfth sign of the zodiac is concerned with:

* compassion, sympathy, love, altruism
* dreams, the psychic, clairvoyance, sixth sense
* illusions, magic, film, fantasy, make-believe
* art, drama, music, poetry, prose, dance
* unusual talent, memory, wisdom, versatility
* sensitivity, intuition, humor, satire
* secrets, fulfillment of life, eternity

Elemental Quality

Pisces is the mutable water sign of the zodiac. It can be likened to a warm, turquoise lagoon, twinkling in the sunshine, or to a strong ocean current rising from the depths to break over a rocky shore, smoothing the pebbles for all time.

Mutable means changeable, and water can change its form in many ways: rain, hail, snow, mist, frost, clouds, rainbows, warm pools, and puddles; thus, Piscean feelings can change a dozen times a day.

Spiritual Goal

To learn the meaning of peace through service to others.

The Piscean Personality

These are the general personality traits found in people who are typical of Pisces. An unhappy or frustrated Pisces may display some of the not-so-attractive traits.

Positive

* Loving and caring

* Trusting, hospitable, and will help all in distress

* Shy

* Helpful

* Romantic

* Creative

* Mystical

* Gentle and kind

* Compassionate

* Understanding of others

Negative

* Self-pitying

* Sensationalist

* Can lose touch with reality

* Too emotionally involved with the problems of others

* Depressive

* Tends to blame self for everything

* Temperamental

* Gullible and will give all in a lost cause

* Escapist

* Dependent

Secret Pisces

Anyone who has strong Piscean influences is a person who has perhaps the most extreme choices of any zodiac sign. Pisces can accept the challenges of life and rise to the top, or can give in to the easy way of oblivion and sink to the bottom. This choice is symbolized by the two fishes.

To help him or her swim to the top, the Pisces must find peace through beauty, music, and harmony.

The Pisces needs work which will enable him or her to achieve this. More than any other sign, Pisces has many talents which may be used to develop their character. Many work hard to improve the lot of humanity. Others bring their talents to film and entertainment, enlivening the lives of thousands.

Pisces needs to turn his/her private, mystical dream world of love and compassion into a reality. The only other option for a Pisces is a life of illusion and, ultimately, a sense of failure.
Ruling Planet and Its Effect

Jupiter and Neptune rule the zodiac sign of Pisces, so anyone whose birthchart has a strong Piscean influence will tend to bring benefit to others through their sensitivity.

In astrology, Jupiter is the planet of expansion, optimism, and generosity. Neptune is the planet of dreams, sensitivity, the unconscious, and the world of unreality.

Piscean Lucky Connections

Colors: violet, light green, blue

Plants: opium poppy, lotus, water plants

Perfume: ambergris

Gemstones: pearl, amethyst, beryl, aquamarine

Metal: tin

Tarot Card: the Moon

Animals: fish, dolphin

The Piscean Look

People who exhibit the physical characteristics of Pisces look more clumsy than they actually are.

They give off a feeling of otherworldliness, and usually have very sensitive, caring eyes. They may have a trusting, eager look or a quality of empathy and nonjudgement exclusive to those who truly understand human sorrows and failings.

Physical Appearance (NOT TRUE! HAHA)

* Body: usually short and thinkset (SURE?)

* Back: may stoop as the person walks

* Eyes: a sleepy appearance with large eyebrows

* Head: oddly shaped (very round)

* Limbs: generally short (i dont think so?)

The Pisces Male

If a man behaves in a way typical of the personality associated with the zodiac sign of Pisces, he will have a tendency toward the characteristics listed below, unless there are influences in his personal birthchart that are stronger than that of his Pisces sun sign.

Appearance

The typical Pisces man:

* may be tall but is not physically distinctive
* has a somewhat clumsy appearance
* has rather heavy jowls
* has broad or thick shoulders

Behavior and Personality Traits

* has few prejudices
* is not ambitious for status, fame, or fortune, although he can make good use of opportunities if they come his way
* is very romantic
* cannot easily be fooled
* has few material needs, but needs his dreams
* talks slowly and is knowledgeable on many subjects
* is rarely jealous, but gets hurt all the same
* is emotionally involved in whatever he does, although he may never show it

The Pisces Female

If a woman behaves in a way that is distinctive of the personality associated with the zodiac sign of Pisces, she will have a tendency toward the characteristics listed below, providing there are no influences in her personal birthchart that are stronger than that of her Pisces sun sign.

Appearance

The typical Pisces woman:
* is normally slim, but tends to put on weight in later years
* has large eyes and an oval face
* has clear, soft skin, whatever her color
* has an air of feminine mystery
* has a very warm, charming smile

Behavior and Personality Traits

* does not try to dominate her partner in any way
* often appears vague and dreamy
* is subtle and, while appearing to be helpless or incapable, gets things organized and manages the finances extremely well
* protects her emotional vulnerability with humor or a sophisticated exterior
* needs to belong to someone
* has a warm, sympathetic heart

Young Pisces

If a child behaves in a way that is distinctive of the personality associated with Pisces, he or she will have a tendency toward the characteristics listed below.
Behavior and Personality Traits
The typical Pisces child:
* has the sweetest, dimpled smiles and the most winning ways of all babies
* lives in a world of make-believe
* dislikes orderliness and routines
* has an amazing imagination
* holds secret conversations with invisible (and sometimes long dead) people
* has a very active sixth sense
* believes in magick, fairies, and Santa Claus, and may reinvent myths
* enjoys the company of adults more than that of other children
* rarely loses his or her temper, and instead just happily goes his or her own way

Bringing Up Young Pisces

At school, young Pisces avoids the limelight and does not take leadership positions, so her or she should never be pushed to take such roles. However, Piscean children are the source of wonderful ideas for play and adventure in which Pisces will be very happy to let other children take the lead.

Parents would be wise to gently help young Pisces to distinguish between fantasy and reality, without destroying his or her rich imagination. Because of their passive, nonaggressive natures, Piscean children may sometimes be the victims of bullies, so it would be useful to teach them strategies for dealing with such situations.

Young Pisces' Needs

Young Pisces needs to feel he or she belongs to someone or several someones. Emotional connections with people are absolutely essential to Piscean happiness. He or she is less concerned with places or things, although attachments to animals are often sought as well.

Consequently, a Pisces child should be helped to believe in himself or herself and prevented from becoming too clinging. Parents who cling to their Pisces child are doing him or her no good at all.
What To Teach Young Pisces

Piscean children absorb information and ideas like a sponge and transform everything into magic. They should be taught to sort their ideas and to distinguish between what is practical and what is not.

Young Pisceans tend to be vulnerable to those who would deceive them. An understanding of human nature and some simple, clear rules will help young Pisces to avoid the dangers -- while still developing their precious skills of compassion.

Some simple routines should be taught, otherwise Pisces may become spoiled and will dominate the home with his or her changing desires.
Pisces At Home

For a typical Piscean, home is a place where he or she will need to feel loved. Home can be a palace or a hovel, but it must contain people toward whom he or she is drawn emotionally and who love him or her.

Typical Behavior and Abilities (VERY TRUE)

When at home, a Pisces man or woman:
* will often enter a fantasy world
* will feel safe to explore his or her imagination
* will probably have no fixed routine
* is likely to be untidy, although he or she may have a sudden urge to tidy everything to avoid confusion: this can happen at any time
* should keep a large, clear clock
* will need a space for personal privacy
* will make the home itself into a wonderful world of art, music, design, and good food and wine

Pisces as a Parent

* can happily accommodate all the fantasies of childhood
* will allow a child plenty of imaginative freedom
* may lack discipline
* listens with understanding
* encourages personal development
* may have to teach the children punctuality
* is warm and loving and rarely uses harsh words
* may tend to spoil the children
* will probably have a very personal and unusual set of rules to which the children must adhere

Two Pisces in the Same Family

Pisces is the same family should get on very well, providing they have an outlet for their vivid, unworldly imaginations. For example, Piscean siblings may build an imaginative world together; or a Piscean parent who makes fictional films will find inspiration in the ideas of his or her offspring.

Pisces At Work

At work, the person who has a typical Pisces personality will exhibit the following characteristics.

Typical Behavior and Abilities

A typical Pisces at work:

* is rarely in an executive position, nor does he or she enjoy being tied to working in a team that has a strict routine
* enjoys work that offers freedom of expression, which usually means working alone or in a self-directed position
* if working in a team, Pisces prefers an occupation that allows for frequent changes and adaptations

Pisces as Employer

A typical Pisces boss (male or female):
* is more likely to be found in organizations as a director rather than as the boss
* will serve people rather than accumulate power
* uses his or her gifts to make the correct move
* is a shrewd judge of character
* is unconventional and creative
* values those who are conventional and well organized, because they are needed to back up his or her ideas
* will never rufuse help to someone in need
* may act tough to hide a deep belief in the mystical

Pisces as Employee

A typical Pisces employee (male or female):
* needs work where there is plenty of outlet for either human understanding or creative imagination
* will be depressed, lazy, and useless if neither of these needs are satisfied
* will be very affected by surroundings
* when happy is a loyal worker
* will get the job done, although nobody seems to understand how he or she operates

Working Environment

The workplace of a typical Pisces man or woman:
* must feel comfortable
* will have a pleasent atmosphere
* should be a large and flexible space
* may be brightly colored

Typical Occupations

All kinds of jobs in film, theater, TV, radio, ballet, music, and art will attract Pisces, who is often a good actor. A job that allows travel will be attractive. Advertising, public relations, and any job that is part of the service industry. Helping people to solve their problems and charitable and church work will also be very attractive to Pisces.

Pisces and Love

To Pisces, there is no difference between love, affection, and romance. A Pisces needs all three. A Pisces who feels unloved is an unhappy person to whom life seems very gray. Love revitalizes Pisces.

Behavior When In Love

The typical Pisces:
* is romantic
* eager to please
* adapts to the demands of the relationship
* appears to be helpless, delicate, and vulnerable, but being loved enables Pisces to cope very well with a range of difficulties, problems, and tragedies
* is emotionally involved, to the point of not recognizing when he or she is being deceived or treated badly

Expectations

The typical Pisces expects:
* to have his or her dreams valued and to be protected from harsh criticism
* to be cared for romantically
* to have children (Pisces love children)
* to be frequently reassured that they are loved
* all birthdays and anniversaries to be remembered (LOL)

The End of An Affair

Some Pisces tend to drift into another relationship almost without noticing, yet are surprised when they are accused of unfaithfulness. The self-doubt which haunts many Pisces can only be dispelled by repeated reassurance that they are lovable.

Consequently, Pisces may sometimes just leave a relationship for no clear reason and with no regrets. It is not that the Pisces does not love the abandoned partner anymore. On the contrary, Pisces will often show much sympathetic understanding and will try to retain a friendly relationship with the one he or she has left.

The worst possible event for a Pisces is to be rejected by the one who loved them. A partner who wants to end a relationship with a typical Pisces will find this a very difficult thing to do. Pisces will cling, convinced that if they reform in some way, everything will be all right again. The ex-partner of a Pisces may have to go to extremes to extricate himself or herself from the emotional mess that a hurt Pisces can produce.

Pisces and Sex

When a typical Pisces makes love it is an act of romance rather than of carnal pleasure. Typical Pisces is less interested in sexual activity than in the expressions of love that come before and afterward.

Piscean energy is more often used up in the emotional experiences of love than in the sexual act. This does not mean that Pisces in not interested, indeed he or she may seek several partners, but this is for reassurance rather than personal pleasure.

Pisces can be the least prejudiced and most compassionate of all the zodiac signs. Pisces will show a deep and real love for a partner who has problems or physical abnormalities, or has to face a tragedy or business disaster. Sex will be one of the expressions of love given by a caring and devoted Piscean spouse.
Pisces and Partner

The person who contemplates becoming the marriage or business partner of a typical Pisces must realize that Pisces will expect to be supported -- emotionally or financially. Given this, the person who partners Pisces can expect loyalty and sensitive understanding.
Pisces Man As A Partner

He will want a partner who will work for him: someone to run the household efficiently and who will entertain his friends and business colleagues.

In return, the married Pisces will bring great joy to the household with his wonderful imagination. Marriage gives male Pisces more self-assurance, so he will become more decisive.

Potential business partners should be prepared to undertake the practical, administrative side of the business, leaving the Piscean partner free to exercise their creativity and understanding.
Pisces Woman As A Partner

She will want a marriage partner who will support her in every respect. To many men, Pisces is the perfectly feminine woman. She may appear to be a helpless, fluffy person but, once married, she will feel secure, and her reserve of talents and abilities will pour out in every direction.

In business, a Pisces woman will be best in creative positions and in public relations, but should not be expected to do the routine office jobs.

Opposite Sign

Virgo is the complementary opposite sign to Pisces. While Pisces adapts himself or herself to the emotional needs of others, Virgo works hard to serve others by responding to the needs of the moment with practical solutions. From Virgo, Pisces can learn how to translate Piscean sensitivity and understanding into practical action -- thus dispelling self-doubt and building confidence in his or her Piscean abilities.

Pisces and Friends

In general, Pisces likes a friend who is useful and reassuring. In return, they will give unprejudiced understanding and loyalty to their friends.

Positive Factors

Pisces are emotionally attached to their friends and will rarely take notice if the friend is taking advantage of this involvement.

Pisces are friendly, humorous, and caring friends, even if there are long periods of time between meetings.

Pisces will always think up something interesting to do and will enjoy any kind of artistic ventures.

Negative Factors

Pisces can be a confusing person, so arrangements may be difficult to make.

Pisces can sometimes seem to be cool and offhand. This is usually temporary and due to a moment of insecurity.

Pisces needs a hero or heroine to identify with. If a friend happens to be the chosen one, this can be pleasant enough but may become a nuisance when Pisces gives the friend talents he or she hasn't got and expects them to be demonstrated!

Pisces does not find it easy to conform; friends with conservative attitudes may find this a difficulty.

A compatibility chart, below, lists those with whom Pisces is likely to have the most satisfactory relationships.

Compatibility

In general, if people are typical of their zodiac sign, relationships between Pisces and other signs (including the complementary opposite sign, Virgo) are as shown below.
Pisces with Pisces: Harmonious
Pisces with Aries: Harmonious
Pisces with Taurus: Harmonious
Pisces with Gemini: Difficult
Pisces with Cancer: Harmonious
Pisces with Leo: Turbulent
Pisces with Virgo: Difficult
Pisces with Libra: Turbulent
Pisces with Scorpio: Harmonious
Pisces with Sagittarius: Difficult
Pisces with Capricorn: Harmonious
Pisces with Aquarius: Harmonious

Piscean Leisure Interests

Most typical Pisces love artistic pursuits and anything that has an element of mystery, fantasy, and imagination.

Pisceans love films, theater, traveling entertainers, pantomimes, witches, gypsies, elves, monsters, and mythical creatures.

Team sport is not a natural Piscean activity, but Pisceans often love gentle watersports, noncompetitive skiing, and skydiving.

Dangerous sports, such as racing cars, can also appeal to the Pisces because they have an unerring instinct in such situations.

Piscean Likes and Dislikes

Likes

* seafood, champagne, and organic foods
* romantic places, sunsets over the sea, mountain vistas, waterfalls, ponds and waterlilies
* background music, poetry
* people who need their understanding
* mystical settings, candles, incense
* being loved
* freedom to drift along from time to time
* privacy
* colorful food
* personalized gifts
* presents wrapped in magical paper
* new books
* diamonds

Dislikes

* bright, noisy, crowded places (!!!)
* dirty, ugly objects
* being told to get a grip on things
* stiff clothing
* authorities
* people knowing too much about him or her

Piscean Health

Typical Pisces are healthy people so long as they feel loved and have an outlet for their dreams. Unhappy Pisces are vulnerable to problems arising from turning to drink, drugs, or other ways of getting relief from what may seem unbearable emotional insecurities.

Pisces often has to work hard to swim against the current that would pull him or her under. The constant effort of avoiding being sucked into oblivion is the cause of much distress to many Pisces, who, consequently, may suffer depression and other emotional problems.

Types of Sickness

Troubles with the feet and toes are coomon among Pisces: bunions, corns, ingrown toenails, boils and foot deformities may occur.

Pisces may become forgetful when illness is about to strike. They may also suffer from the effects of too much wine or too many drugs. The sensitive Piscean psyche suffers greatly in times of stress and has little to draw on by way of personal resources.

Pisces at Rest

A relaxed Pisces is the happiest person on earth. A chance to lie back, sip wine, listen to music and let the imagination wander is perfect bliss to Pisces.
Famous Pisceans

Sidney Poitier (Actor), Frederic Chopin (Composer), Meher Baba (Mystic), Joanne Woodward (Actress), Elizabeth Taylor (Actress), Liza Minelli (Actress, Singer and Dancer), Albert Einstein (Physicist and Mathematician), Rudolph Nureyev (Ballet Dancer)

2009-03-16T13:28:00.006+08:00

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mummy for going thirty years=)

mummy to be=)

ah choy

with horsin

the silly kinder joy toy.. which only sticks to owner -__-" *quote choy and dorc unquote*

2009-03-12T01:21:00.004+08:00

i think its high time i get back on my feet.. for those who were concern, thanks a lot=) i am fine, really.. but i didnt do well that is.. as promised, i went "MIA" for a couple of days, rejecting calls, ignoring messages and all.. because i wasnt in the mood.. i guess i am still not, for now but i will be fine soon.. i get over some things faster than the others (things)..

the only ones i remained in contact with during this period, should be only yk and yh because perhaps with them, i let down my guard easier than when i am with others.. joy called yesterday out of concern, knowing that i didnt do too well.. i wanted to reject that call actually, but i still did answer it.. out of what? i dont really know..

and people, if you happen to read this, please stop trying to contact me=( because i promise i will appear ready, whenever i am.. unlike now, i am not in the mood or state to communicate.. but before i go, heres a picture of a grumpy pangpang=)

whenever i feel like running away, something or someone, somehow pulls me back to where i am standing.. perhaps its my cowardice, perhaps its where my heart wants to belong.. and perhaps its you, little one.. i want to be involved in your world, thats why i dont want to leave..

2009-03-06T02:26:00.002+08:00

Got this from Natho's blog.. i couldnt quite fall asleep.. so i decided to try it out..

What would your own album look like if you were in a band? Follow the directions below and find out...

Here are the rules:

1 - Go to Wikipedia. Hit "Random Articles"
or click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to Quotations Page and select "random quotations"
or click http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four or five or few words of the very last quote on the page is the title of your first album.

3 - Go to Flickr and click on "explore the last seven days"
or click http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days
Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

4 - Use Photoshop or any other image editor to put it all together.

Introducing...

tadaa! support my debut! THANKS YOU WEAR WEAR MUSH=)

2009-02-23T16:17:00.006+08:00

finally 19!

in no order of credit, i would like to thank EVERYONE who had made me feel remembered on my birthday!!

first, i would like to thank my family, for being together with me almost every year on my birthday!! thanks to my sis and bro in law, i finally got the precious moment figurine which i had been EYEING for since last year + my favourite of all times FOUR LEAVES chocolate cake!! JYJR for forking out near to half the price of blackie and mummy plus daddy for bringing me up (SO BIG)

and as most of you would have known, i spent my first ever birthday in malaysia.. and i seriously wasn't expecting much.. HOWEVER, my cousins were really a great bunch of fun! we were supposed to go to dreambox (= kbox) at 11pm on the 21st.. and it was already booked and confirm before we went.. but the screwed up system pissed my cousin off so badly because we waited for more than half and hour and still wasnt allowed into the room.. so i suggest that we go somewhere else instead since it was so much of a spoiler.. when we reached the lift, i saw 2 of them, one holding on to a cake and the other, a present! i was like so shy that i didnt dare to look at them.. and we returned to their home and celebrated with my uncle, auntie and my parents! and in the uber big space (cause they live in a terrace house), weirdly, the "surround system" was too good for my comfort.. as they sang birthday song for me, i felt 100x super very awkward.. not knowing what to do except to blush.. but it was so great=) kudos to cynthia, yvonne, nelson, xian and ling plus my aunt and uncle=) btw they have a big big family! 7 of them who are all nice souls and the reason i like going to malaysia so much=)

i have quite a few pikchas.. but i couldnt find my camera cable=( so till then, it shall just be a blank blank wordy post..

thanks to:

songwei
dixon lim
daojun (for remembering one day late! haha)
hoihin
chinteng
xiu hui
glenn
gracelyn
huimin
yuci
miss audrey lim (for being so nice when there isnt really a need to!)
paulnana
yee ning
eesuan
xiaohong
yukai
dorcas
choy
kwangbeng
prof goh ching yong
zhengyi
joy
kuan ming
xiang jun
weijun
singsuen
valerie
madeline
magdalene
yanshan
kimshan
zoe
jacqueline
you li
raynut
jialing
kian yen
my auntie who called to wish me bright and early but i departed for malaysia already=(
deepa
shilin
liyun
TET

for the messages, fb comments, and msn offline messages! THANKS THANKS THANKS

ps: i finally got to eat my pai gu mian i have missed for a year! and i ate it for 2 consecutive days!

pps: i ate ah koong fishball noodle!! my favorite fishball noodle since i was about 6 i think! =)

2009-02-19T21:24:00.001+08:00

為了什麼你不開口說話　是否看路很彎又很長
如果山中迷霧讓你害怕　我願做你的回聲一路唱

扎西德勒　祝福生命成長　在孤單時你一定要堅強
扎西德勒　微笑中有陽光　不放棄的人都擁有希望

為了什麼你的眼漸黯淡　跟我抬頭看看滿天星光
如果有一天天空全黑暗　我的歌在你心中閃閃亮亮

this song brings backs lots of childhood memories.. but i cant find it online.. if you know where or how to get it, please inform me=)

2009-02-13T17:32:00.001+08:00

i guess i am fine already=)
i will still be your...

2009-02-13T00:04:00.000+08:00

GMX vs JINGLE=)

2009-02-07T02:40:00.007+08:00

random pikchas

2009-02-04T18:39:00.003+08:00

yosh.. mina san!

gmx has decided to keep this blog solely for pictures or maybe for nothing! i have moved! too many pictures, too many stories - happy, sad, cranky, too many people involved, too much laughter, too much tears.. i love it too much to be letting it go! i have always heard people saying how silly they thought their previous entries were.. but i never thought about mine so.. in fact from time to time, i will re-read my posts from toe to head and laugh it off.. a bulk comprising of childish me, a bulk comprising of my growth, about relationship, friendship, family, and anything that made it possible.. like PANGPANG..

to visit my new dwelling, its here!

2009-01-25T04:01:00.002+08:00

dear all,

i shall first wish you a merry merry CNY!!
GMX wont be in town for a few days starting from tmr.. so dont miss me too much or i may sneeze excessively=) being in malacca makes GMX a happy kid..

kueh bangkit kueh bangkit kueh bangkit!! WOOTS!!

some updates:

i will officially be unemployed on the 10th Feb
i am currently addicted to buying.. not shopping.. its BUYING =(
kino earns a lot from me (relatively) these days
i am eyeing for an ipod classic.. EYEING cause my bank dont allow..
i cant wait to see mitua and all!

malacca, here i come.. ciao my friends! i will be back soon! :D

♫♪♫

2009-01-20T00:33:00.005+08:00

Rules must be followed: Each blogger must post THESE rules.
Each blogger must start with ten random facts about HIMSELF/HERSELF.
Bloggers that are tagged need to write about their own blog, ten things and post THESE rules.
Don't forget to leave them comments telling them they have been tagged and are to read your blog.

10 Random Facts about me:

purple rocks my socks
i have this habit of talking to my toy
i like to do stuff that others wont expect out of me
my greatest fear is to disappoint people i love
i can eat the same thing for consecutive days/weeks without getting sick of it (my colleagues can vouch for this)
i'm very straightforward to people i dont fancy and i get very wishy washy when it comes to people i care about
once, i fell asleep standing up
music can make quick changes to my mood
i get upset when my fringe is off form (narcissistic in other words that is)
i peep at handsome guys and pretty girls VERY often

1.Who's the person that tagged you?

Xuan

2. Relationship between you and him/ her?

Clique mate in JJ

3. Three impressions of him/ her?

random moodswings, crazy about flh, auntie social! HAHA

4. If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will?

smack then talk.. LOL! if really got that day then say

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?

be mine, forever

6. Characteristic i like about myself?

only i can write the story of myself

7. Characteristic i hate about myself?

i got a very low threshold for irritants.. they get onto my nerves..

8. For the person whom you hate, you say?

till parallel lines meet, thats when i will be nice to you=)

9. What do people feel about you?

i think they cant be bothered.. for those who do, i guess its random and lame

10. Your crush crushes?

not many.. they are all in the light=)

skipped the last part.. its too lame=)

2009-01-18T02:09:00.001+08:00

i teared while reading joshuaang's January 12th post..

like what crap?

why of all times?

it still stings,

real bad.

2009-01-13T17:50:00.001+08:00

one day,

i will show you what is love.

i hate myself because of you,

because i have been running away,

because i m a coward.

2009-01-13T02:35:00.005+08:00

everywhere but here

i hope its my looks and not dress sense or behaviour.. since young, people are always dubbing different nationalities on me.. i shall share my collection..

korean: 2

jap: 3

mixed chinese-western blood: 2

taiwan:2

mongolia: 1

china (in general) : about 4

"you are not a local right?!": COUNTLESS! ( i suppose a bulk goes to prc)

hahahaha.. i mean if its my looks i can sort of like accept (for prc case) cause my ancestors are from there what! so its normal should i look like people from there.. but if its cause of my behaviour and dressing, i will cry

2009-01-11T02:43:00.001+08:00

anything can change..

within a second,

a day,

a week,

let alone a year.

but wherever you are,

i'll miss you

2009-01-10T02:23:00.005+08:00

i've made up my mind.. finally got the lazy bug off me and typed the letter.. signed it with utmost sincerity and i am left with the tendering part.. the notice period was too much or i will be able to work for a longer period.. 1 month! for a frigging parttime job! i love the job.. i enjoy it.. but i hate R-I-G-I-D-I-T-Y.. i know i m created to obey.. because i am damn good at it.. but i m a robot with a faulty microchip.. the good side of robot me says that i m just right for the job since its not meant for thinking people.. and its higly recommended for robots.. however the spoilt side of robot me says that i should just leave..

that place don't allow questions and unfortunately, i am one who cant live without questioning.. quote han hui "its either their way, or nothing" everytime i have a question, people there are often reluctant OR rather, they cant provide me with an answer cause they do what they are told to.. i often get answers like "its like this one" followed by a bewildered look like i descend from outer space for asking questions because i am SUPPOSED to do as i am told to and NOT to question anything.. and few of the more senior staff will keep asking "understand or not?!" like i am too dumb to because i ask them question, NOT regarding what am i supposed to do but WHY.. knowing what i am supposed to do is one thing, understanding WHY i am supposed to do it is another and they always bypass the latter, thinking its unimportant.. but overall its a good experience and i made alive what i learnt from econs.. big companies are often resistent to change and they need damn long time to process stuff with regards to changes..

on a happier note, i saw SAM LEONG today! he was at my counter! i so love him.. cause i have a fetish for chefs, remember? =) he bought a few books which cost thousand over bucks :S lucky its in cash.. if not that charge slip will be DAMN ex...

its quite funny how when i see some handsome guy/pretty girls, interesting people or celebrities so to speak, if i want to see them, they will appear in front of my counter.. for example sam leong, i saw him before he queued up while i was doing gift wrap at the back of the counter.. and i was damn hyped up already.. AND who knows a while after i returned to the counter, he popped up in front of me!!! another instance was this muscle man from mediacorp whom i do not know of his name, he was browsing some stuff with his girl.. and i was like.. "isnt he the........" 2 moments later, he appeared at my counter and i was like "ohh yeah.. so its really him" lame.. but i hope more handsome guy appears.. pretty girls are welcomed too should i be at the same counter as zul, the ventriloquist who has a memory 2 seconds better than me=)

2009-01-08T01:25:00.005+08:00

see you around

dear Y,

i've fought my battle, the way you told me to

and friend, i failed

but i am not perplexed,

and instead, i see clear

i have always been trying to protect you

like how you'd always, for me

you've broken your promise

but i wont blame you

its been a month since i received your letter

informing of your going away

i doubled my workload and doubled my enjoyment

so u dont have to fear

for i have no time to tear

friend, stick around

DON'T stray too far away

for when my time is up,

we will be together,

and this time, i wont say goodbye

my only fear is that i cant find you anymore,

in that vast land

without bus guides, without lamp posts

without you

please yield to my request

for you know how bad i am with my directions

i NEED to find you

i miss you much

lotsa love,

2009-01-05T23:26:00.017+08:00

2 mayDAYS=D

mayday = love

its high time to get a new camera with better zooming functions alr! or i can soon start drawing circles around any tom dick harry and say i saw jay chou from far far away=)

cute

relaxing

dao

bought the cap at the outdoor concert yesterday.. and seriously i dont know which is whose signature! cause i was too nervous! and yes, your eyes are not playing a trick on you.. GMX is actually nervous! i didnt queue for very long though, started at six and got it at 8+ cause it was super speed.. i think there was about 800-1000 ppl and it finished within 3 hours.. rushed down from THE LUNCH which i dont even know anyone.. and its ALL thanks to madeline + ethel (who covered up my duties for me), and actually Miss C (who scolded me before letting me have my day off) who had made it possible=)

concert @ stadium green.. its definitely worthy for me to rush down after work despite having sore legs and a fatigue mind=)

richard stone

ashin

ma sha

monster

JY, py's hand, JR, GMX=)

singing lian ai-ing

photoshopped clouds

突然好想你 is still making me feel nolstagic.. so much that i dont actually dare to listen it on my phone these days, anymore.. its such an "into my bone" song.. every single line stings real bad..

2009-01-05T13:22:00.002+08:00

for several days, i put my msn nick as "my tears ducts ran dry, the day you said goodbye" i dont know how true it is.. but i know ever since last april, except while watching dramas, i never really drop a another drop of tear.. there are occasions where i m close to tears, when i feel helpless, when i feel wronged, when i feel fustrated.. but i never cried.. sometimes i wonder if i m devoid of any emotions, anymore.. because i used to be a cry bun who would cry for any tom, dick, harry reasons.. but now, i dont really know..

last night, i went to mayday's outdoor concert.. i was touched.. and i teared.. i was touched because they told me how buddies are hard to come across, i was touched because they are one of a kind.. and i teared because they worry for each other, they showed love which neednt be expressed in words.. the drummer of the band, gy was absent yesterday, initially all of us thought that its cause his wife gave birth so he had to be by her side.. but its cause his father-in-law passed away after a long battle with illness.. shin mentioned that at almost every concert that they made before the new year, when it comes to slow songs, gy would start tearing.. so he led everyone at the stadium green to cheer gy up.. the unity was amazing.. 6000 voices into one.. and i teared.. this is how amazing mayday can be.. because they are full of humanity and they relate to commoners like everyone..

2009-01-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

最怕空氣突然安靜最怕朋友突然的關心

最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息

最怕突然聽到你的消息

想念如果會有聲音不願那是悲傷的哭泣

事到如今終於讓自己屬於我自己

只剩眼淚還騙不過自己

突然好想你你會在哪裡過得快樂或委屈

突然好想你突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛

2009-01-02T10:58:00.002+08:00

dreams interpretations

Falling

Children, like adults, are susceptible to falling dreams when they feel off balance or out of control. Falling dreams occur most often when there is a sense of chaos in the schedule, when small things mount up or when stability feels somehow shaky.

Being chased

You might be trying to avoid something. Can you identify the chaser? This might clarify what you're trying to avoid. If the person or thing chasing you is identifiable as a part of yourself, the dream might involve a fear from within, such as an unhealthy relationship or unhealthy behavior. (i was being "chased" by a middle age man)

Teeth dreams - "My Teeth Are Falling Out"

Dreams that your teeth are falling out are the most common dreams we here at Dream Moods receive. Common dream scenarios include having your teeth crumbling in your hands or your teeth falling out one by one with just a light tap. Such dreams are not only horrifying and shocking, but often leaves the dreamer with a lasting image of the dream. So what does it mean?

One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you. Sadly, we live in a world where good looks are valued highly and your teeth play an important role in conveying that image. Teeth are used in the game of flirtations, whether it be a dazzling and gleaming smile or affectionate necking. These dreams may stem from a fear of your sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. Teeth are an important feature of our attractiveness and presentation to others. Everybody worries about how they appear to others. Caring about our appearance is natural and healthy.

Another rationalization for these falling teeth dream may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some specific situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxiety.

Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion.

Baby

Many people from time to time will have babies or small children in their dreams. If these newborns are strangers to you, you can assume that they represent you. You are the baby and the dream is telling you something about your development in a particular area of your life. At times of great change and renewal, a baby may appear in a dream and represent your potential and a new beginning. Some of the meaning of the dream may be obtained by considering what the baby looked like and was doing. Generally, babies represent innocence and are symbols of the purest form of a human whose possibilities are endless. However, if the babies appearance is odd, and if your interactions with it are bizarre or unusual, you need to consider your own well-being (psychologically) and think about what personal experiences and psychological hang-ups have prevented you from growing.

Baby

If the baby was pretty, you will be fortunate through the help of friends. However, if the baby was ugly or in any way displeasing to you, look out for treachery in someone you are inclined to trust. Helpless or sick babies are generally a warning of difficulties ahead, so be cautious in your business and/or or love affairs. A walking baby indicates sudden independence, and if you dreamed of many babies, great satisfaction and happiness are coming your way.

2009-01-01T22:29:00.003+08:00

~~happy~~ new year to all! i m quitting my job soon. the mental fatique surpasses the physical one by infinity=( double standard, rigidity, politics.. i have had enough! its an insult. i hate that place. would be heeding my mum's advice to sit myself in the office and earn money although its not my preferred choice. bad start. YUCK

2008-12-31T17:29:00.003+08:00

on the same day last year, i sat myself down in front of the computer and thought about the year. this year, i planned not to do the same thing. all that i can say was that 2008 was a very screwed up one for me.. there were both goods and bads.. but the bads outweighs the good by a mile.. i hope that 2009 will be a better year for the rest of us.. (but no more cheap bus fare is a BIG con)

especially to those i love.. i'm sure that things are gonna be fine.. we should really cherish our lives come what may=)

2008-12-29T03:09:00.003+08:00

just stop acting cool and admit you need human relationships

being independent doesnt mean you have to exclude other people in your life

admit that you love company although you find relationships a hassle

admit that you are afraid of loneliness although you enjoy being alone sometimes

admit that you feel happy talking to people, even though sometimes the conversation dont make sense

admit that you dont belong to this world but play along with their rules

i know you are good at obeying even though you know you are a rebel inside you

i know you are afraid to handle human relationships

i know you are just a mere coward..

i know..

i know everything

cause i know you since day 1

gmx, wake up.

when that someone comes around, dont lock him/her out of your heart..

DON'T

2008-12-29T00:53:00.003+08:00

3rd week on job

learning summary

what i did as a cashier:

settle my stuff on my own as much as i can but gladly accept help when theres a need to
in my eyes, i see only the customer i m serving
always keep the charge slips before anything
pack stuff into 2 separate bags instead of dumping them into one large bags
entertain your colleagues
smile when expected to
always say thank you. it never hurts
interact with customers to minimise awkwardness when credit machine's volume is high
carass ur gadgets before starting work. they get a little cranky when they overwork
say good morning to the cash register and the system which connects
walk the path that you direct customers and make sure it does link to where it is suppose to
hide in the changing room and countdown to the end of break before reluctantly punching in and starting work again
when you dont know anything, ask! even at the expense where people will say that you are weird, asking so many questions.
enjoy what you are doing to minimise boredom
when you meet weird customers who scolds, smile.
get pissed when people ask a CASHIER where to find books or if a book is in stock!! how do we KNOW?!?!?! as in cashiers are not mighty morphin power rangers.. respect our job scope.. at least ask us where do you go to enquire about it?! not expecting we should know everything!

2008-12-28T02:00:00.002+08:00

it is raining

and i'm thinking of you

i looked out of the window

and tears rolled down my cheeks

but my clothes weren't soaked

and i realised its the rain,

falling upon the pane

its pain but i'll tear no more

it hurts to numb but time will do so

and i always wonder why are things so

darling, i cant get over you

darling, its hard to bear,

darling, its difficult to love

and darling, this will be the last time i'm addressing you

2008-12-27T01:11:00.003+08:00

christmas trees extravaganza - overdued!

2008-12-26T23:33:00.009+08:00

boxing day activities

meet up with horsin! :Dmet at taka, went cine for lunch and heerens to buy cds! and i feel SO BAD for him=(

after which, met up with yk, yc.. plus xiaohong who "eat snake" for a few minutes.. had our christmas gift exchange today! i am VERY satisfied with my presents!! :D but i feel very very sorry towards xiao hong! cause my aim was to tease them! so i got an ebifry wrist rest for xiaohong and a "apology" memo pad for yukai cause he is always stinging people with his words!! HAHA.. for xiao hong's gift, i put in a packet of soya sauce and a pair of chopsticks for fun, laughter, peace and joy to match the ebifry!! but WHO KNOWS they are so seriously with the gift exchange that i feel like i shortchange them a lot!! now i feel so guilty!! yuci gave us each an AFRO notebook!

just nice 2 guys 2 girls.. xiao hong-dad, yuci-mum, yukai-bro and GMX-sis.. its very cute! :D

yukai gave me a diary with lock to pursue my TKM endeavour -__-" while xiaohong gave me a cute cute speaker!! OUCH! so much so for thinking of playing them (yukai and xiaohong) out=( cause i gave yuci a normal gift:D

stupid conversation...

YC: what time did u all reach?

YK: 5 plus lor

me: i have been here since 1pm!

YC: huh WHY?!

YK: to wait for you lor

YC: HUH really?

YK: no la.. actually she was peeping at yanhong

YC: (while walking) eh mx u very long nvr see yanhong already is it?

YK: ya damn long.. i think about 10 minutes liao.. cause we had to walk here to fetch you then have to walk back

me: DOTS

YC: huh.. mx you really like... ah?

YK: YA LA if not she will peep at him since 1pm?! iron herself against the door just to peep at him..

me: ya lor later you go there can see my handprint

YK: and saliva mark

me: DOTS

sitting opposite us, yk became the object of my pictures

1. chatting yk

2. acting cute yk

3. i dont know what is he doing yk

4. spastic yk

5. gay yk

carbonara! all time favourite from pasta cafe

some mushroom dont know what spaghetti

4 types of cheese spaghetti - custom made for yk

mummy- yuci

sister- me

brother- yk

we are short of daddy.. cause daddy was making money

yk says its best to tear the wrapper of ur christmas present as badly as possible! so i did it.. not on purpose though.. his auntie really secured the present well! haha

dont ask me whats wrong with pangpang! he stole my mum's 20 years ago specs and put it on himself..

thats all for today! i have to sleep or i will make mistakes tmr!

2008-12-24T20:52:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

just in case i couldnt come on at midnight, i shall just wish EVERYBODY a merry merry christmas! and as pangpang says: "may santa grant you a BIG present this yr!" as santa's helper, pangpang will know who to give big presents and who wont get any (eg. cheexuan and eesuan) HAHA for bullying him always! LOL

today's work was fun though i screwed up many things.. keep pressing the wrong stuff and had NINE voids.. only 4 was not my mistake.. the rest.. sniffs!! made small talks with zul the funneh guy.. cause everytime a cute gal lines in a queue, he will like "heyhey, this one cute!" then i will like -__-" and he ask what kind of guys i go for so i told him when i see i tell you! AND i really saw one when he went for dinner! so it goes like this

GMX: when you were not around, i saw this DAMN hot guy!

zul: are you sure? hotter than me?!

GMX: -__-" obviously! got good body also!!

zul: are u trying to make me jealous?!

GMX: huh.. but you are a GUY!!!

lol.. and we got back to work

then this female customer was buying some albums.. i told her that one was them was crumpled and if she wanted to have it changed.. so she said: "its ok.. you can CHECK ME OUT first then i will go there (stationary counter) to change" no pun intended.. but i was like grinning.. thinking to myself that "I AM STRAIGHT, miss.. so sorry i cant return the favour!" HAHA alrights.. its just me being lame and seeking some solace in work! after work, the managers gave us chocolates for christmas! HAPPY HAPPY! :D

thats all for now.. i hope you will enjoy your christmas holidays while i enjoy my "NEXT customer please!" grrrr.. now i m quite frightened of the words "excuse me" already:(

2008-12-23T01:45:00.007+08:00

my F1 experience!

a couple of weeks ago, my sis was telling me how cool was this bus she saw which was of F1 theme with cushioned-seats and all.. i couldnt quite imagine it then but i got to see it with my own eyes today!

i think this bus has been going around for a couple of mths already, explaining why i seem to be the only one who's facinated by the vehicle!

the cushioned seats!

the "empire" seat

my colleagues seemed not to like mid shifts.. but i beg REAL HARD to differ! although lunch time is one of an oddball timing, overall its highly desired by me! and during lunch, its a very boring thing for others but not so much for me.. today zul's break overlapped mine for abt half an hour? so while lunching i got this guy who is into card tricks to show me what he has got! soon, i was done with lunch and he left.. so i slacked into the changing room with half an hour break left, listening to some music cause i was really exhausted by the NEVER ENDING queue.. sometimes i wonder what are these people doing there on a MONDAY noon! i m not sure if its the exhaustion that starkly contrast the relaxation i felt while listening to the songs, somehow, i feel the music sucessfully soaked into my bones.. not that i m saying the music have some healing power.. but i m sure you know what i mean when sometimes you listen to some music and you will feel an adrenaline rush against your bones, thereafter, feeling revitalised! no? so i felt MUCH better, springing back to work! first picture with my uniform on!

this comment that a customer said made my day!

"you guys are fast! the queue is SO long! (turning around, fingering the queue) but seriously, you guys are fast!" (power up.. level 10!)

HAHA! its these little stuff that brings people up or pull us down..

2008-12-21T23:46:00.003+08:00

8th day on job.. feeling good! except for my poor legs=( working there is fun but counting money and tallying the charge slips is not=( there are so many missing charge slips recently.. GRRR.. poor new cashiers.. bought books again today! plus the previous purchase, it will be near 200 bucks=( seem to be working to pay for my books expenses!

saw yong cheng today.. and we had a damn meaningless conversation.

yc: HEY!

gmx: eh hello.. (a bit stunned)

yc: what are u doing here?!

gmx: WORKING la! (its obvious right?! i was in my uniform!!!)

okay then after that some random stuff and i said byebye! cause i was on my way to some place.. and did i mention?! i opened counter yesterday! thanks to this guy who was working together with me, i was kept out of some trouble! he is such a nice fellow.. if not for him... i think i will have a stack of voids to tender! WOOTS!!!

retail industry= getting scolded frequently.

very sad life. but there are just TOO many interesting stories to share among us cashiers who meet ALL the different kind of people! saw this scary man with his right hand fully tatoo-ed together with his neck.. and this stitch-li HAHA.. alright! thats all for updates! i shall upload some overdued photos..

dorcas and her good photography skill..

disgusting behaviour that is commonly seen in orchard. i would have grab it and go off.. if i m pissed.. its like a what? CHOPPED seat -__-" lame.

2008-12-19T22:02:00.013+08:00

Confessions

1. i'm obsessed with brown stuff.

2. i think lemon looks cooler if it is purple.

3. i secretly love/enjoy being tall but regret immediately when:

i bump my head against the top deck of a double decker bus.
hitting my head real hard when alighting from buses.
people ask me question like "You play basketball right!"
you fit into apparels, immediately turning them into clothes for the hobbits but it fits the model nicely=(

4. i ate ants (2 of them) when i was 4/5.

5. i have got this unhealthy obsession dropping YUPI gummy bears into iced water of any kind (eg. coke sprite ice lemon tea EVEN plain iced water) since i dont know how old..

6. i tried using conditioner to wash my barbie's hair cause i thought hers was in a very bad condition since i cant comb it but after that i gave up on her.

7. i read island as IS-land when i was 5.

8. i was cheated into believing that Ronald MacDonald doesnt bathe so we shouldnt eat Mac for a good few yrs.

9. when i was young, i think that pregnant women are very amazing "creatures" for they can put "something" in their stomach without dropping and i tried fitting balloons into my shirt and strut around but it just drop out very soon -__-"

10. i make pangpang and this little guy call me mummy! :D

11. sometimes when i see a crowd, i will zone out

12. i cannot resist guys with broad nice smile

13. i'm scared of anything without fur/hair.

14. i can never discern the sounds of violin and viola

15. i hate people who chew with they mouths open cause they remind me of pigs in their pens chomping on their lunches

16. i ogle at girls with golden ratio and guys with shaped arms (cant take my eyes off them)

17. when i flinch, its cause something disgusting caught my eye (this is not voluntary)

18. i m very possessive over my bed cause i will flinch if someone not my immediate family lands upon it.

19. i love biting off the limbs of animal/human figured food before their head.

20. i can never wear shoes without socks.

21. i will flinch when someone uses the eraser on the top of my mechanical pencil.

22. when i feel uncertain about sth, i will get very nervous and i might/will cry which usually happens on first days of anything (eg kindergarten, primary 1, JC 1, first day at kino)

23. i will secretly feel very grateful to people who spells my name XIN without G cause i will like "HEY! you didnt write G!!! :D"

24. i love tea so much in any form (milk tea, lemon tea, ice tea, hot tea)

25. i have a fetish for brown paper bags, especially the sound it makes

26. i love orchestras alot that i have secretly thought of conducting one when i was younger but i knew my ears were never too sharp to do it and u need 5 brains to be a conductor.

27. i secretly (because i've got no friend who knows him and in primary school you wont enjoy being an oddball) admire yoyo-ma since primary school even till now!

28. i used to think that people who carry gold stuff are rich people when i was 6 and i will wonder why they have such weird preference.

29. i hate drama-mama people in real life.

30. people who are egocentric puts me off very much

31. my neck and my ears are sensitive beings! (cause i rmb i blushed when es blew into my ear for fun!)

32. schedules makes me feel safe.

33. i like guys in suspenders

34. when i was young, i m always tempted to do things i m told not to do (eg. pressing 9 three times on the telephone!) but my self control always wins the battle with the notorious being inside me which explains why i still have a good record!

35. i have something against guys with centre parting.

36. theres no way i can bring myself to wear white, long pants.. (shorts, berms, 3 quarts ok.. not long pants.)

37. i dont like to wear shoes which covers my toes and heel without covering the rest.. (eg normal court shoes) slippers, sandals are fine.

38. i mind lending my novels/storybooks to people, even my sisters (i will confine their usage to our home only!) haha! but others are fine=) because its not a "i'll pay you back" thing when it get damage or its missing=( so i m very thankful to 3 people (es, singsuen, christine) who didnt mind lending me their books cause i dont know where to find them or else usually i will get them myself.

39. i have always like cello since primary school when i was into instruments and orchestre (RMB yoyo ma?) and i admire cellist a lot! but SERIOUSLY, i never ever thought of learning it! LOL

40. i think gays are cool for they are artistic, creative, sensitive and one of a kind.. so please dont obstracize them.. PLEASE

41. i love William Tell Overture.. especially the finale but not so much of the beginning!

42. some food i will never say no to:

chicken wings
M&Ms (plain)
Ferraro Rocher
Kueh bankit
ice lemon tea

43. its easy to see if i want nothing to do with you anymore (at least for that day) and thats when i stop talkign to you or answer very coldly when i started out having a lot to say

44. i m an easy animal to feed if i stay in a zoo.. every 5 hours give me a meal or i will bite..

45. lonely/quiet boys have this magnet towards me. i find them hard to resist

46. sometimes i feel like a schizophrenic

2008-12-18T16:21:00.003+08:00

Hope is a flower which blooms amidst despair

And if one holds a loved one in their heart,

Then that person remains forever in the heart,

As long as long remains

要改变命运的人，要懂得勇敢，懂得牺牲

2008-12-18T00:18:00.003+08:00

tiring but satisfying.

its chinteng's birthday before it turned twelve earlier on. we had a CDM catch up.. i was late.. cause i m SUPERSTAR! :D haha.. neh.. i m not that attitude.. yesterday it was FREAKING busy at work, couldnt buy the books.. so i made a trip SPECIALLY down to kino for my 2 dear friends' birthday presents.. perspiring like mad woman! cause the sun was scorching HOT. anyway i have my new friend/colleague to thank for her help in the shrinkwrap thing for the present to make it nicer=) and i bought the frigging series which caused me 80+ bucks! so thats like 120+++ in 2 days! :( farming is earning me moolah only on the 8th..

caught twillight.. i thought it was very entertaining but its too short even before i read the book. tmr's rest day and the real fight begins on friday.. i hope i dont get miss c as my examiner!!! GRRR it sucks.. finally escaping from school and yet still taking TESTS.. i hope things will be alright. cause i know my stuff and i m a smart girl (HAHA) but i get nervous DAMN easily=(

my heart raced when i was walking towards the steamboat shop. i dont know who's power was that. but i was DARN nervous=( i went in, cy told me sth, ringo and ryan said sth to me which i totally didnt make sense of, i waved and smiled to elgin, looked at zy and before dorc and chinteng realises, i was at the door already! HAHA..

AND stalker qixuan! dont let me catch u stalking me again! go some other capital sth mall to get ur ARB okay! fatten urself a little to get the right size=D

its been a while but i m still not emotionally stable. i guess i need a dip badly. coconut hasnt been working too well lately.

2008-12-10T22:28:00.001+08:00

i sound like a broken instrument~

whats worse than going to kbox without voice?! =( went with my cousins.. and 3 hours, i sang only 2.5 songs! UNBELIEVABLE ya?! i still dont know whats wrong with me.. but i think i feel like a boy breaking voice.. it sucks to speak *sniffs*

orientation tmr! =D first day of farming starts!

2008-12-10T00:28:00.008+08:00

"taking toothbrush on an excursion"

yeah.. thats the syndrome i have developed over these two days.. dont really know whats wrong with me.. BUT i take my toothbrush OUT of the bathroom like twice in 2 days after brushing my teeth -__-" and i travel out to the living room with my toothbrush.. WHATS WRONG?! geez..

and whats more enjoyable than snuggling under the blanket with a book in hand during a rainy night?! i was enjoying that luxurious moment when DANG, my sis suddenly got up and switch off the lights -__-" and it hints "learn to sleep earlier, girl"

on a random note, i lost my voice! FOR NOTHING! =( no accompanying cough, flu, sore throat, NOTHING.. just no voice! *sniffs*

my cousin is in SINGAPORE! and i m starting orientation in 2 days time! WOOTS.. i need some busyness to govern my life to obtain a clear mind! i must be happy.. MUST.. its a promise! =(

2008-12-05T23:52:00.002+08:00

FETISH for eggs..

boiled

fried

coddled

scrambled

steamed

any eggs.. as long as its COOKED

2008-12-02T02:14:00.010+08:00

1 smile, 2 poses, 20+ pikchas

the pics are in reverse order=(

he tilt, i dont know why also tilt -__-"

meiqi=)

off form alr.. got the "i can die right now face" LOL

with MR PHOTOGENIC! lol..

OES.. *nudgenudge*

full body

with clara tang QX.. lol.. i think you did well=)

weili!

prom kings and queens

et's hair which has to be under the light! so pampered.. haha

alex..

MS HO!

MR KOH! omg.. haha

miss melanie LUM! =)

huimin!

weili again!

elgin w/o specs

elgin with specs, gmx with red eye=(

weiming!

chew miao miao

yuci=)

gracelyn=)

MRS CHUA!!!

cherie and my guitar strumming position -__-"

i was trying to ask him not to tilt SO MUCH and the picture was taken -__-" haha

my one and only fan~~ssssssssssss~~

mr ~~PIG~~ ong

deepa

hema lata! =))

another one

JOY.A.Rihanna

cherie.hema.gmx=)

JJC prom, Shangri-la, 1st dec 2008=)

2008-12-01T12:49:00.001+08:00

my hunny bear bear has a stunning new outfit! super cool! picture is ready BUT i will have patience! share it with you approximately 2-3 weeks later! =))

2008-11-29T01:17:00.004+08:00

groggy past-midnite chat

cy's pm: What does Santa do for the other 364 days?

gmx: wrap presents

cy: haha where he get the money to buy those presents ?

gmx: his reindeers will go and work

cy: O.o aww poor reindeers must be slogging their life out

gmx: yah

cy: sad life

gmx: hmmm ok la, they carry logs.. happier than on 25th dec.. carry a big fat ass with TONNES of presents

cy: ahahaha ! ur rite !

gmx: =D

i think i m not in the right state of mind anymore! haha.. so ciao! =)

2008-11-28T19:44:00.004+08:00

prom is nearing! everyone seems to be more or less ready.. getting on a big big shopping spree lately.. getting mostly non-prom stuff! lol.. with less than $300, i got myself 3 tops, 2 pairs of pants, 1 cardigan and 1 pair of heels! =) quite worthy yeah?!

AND i saw my 咖啡豆男孩 !! he is so cute can.. i was looking around for him.. but didnt see.. until when i paid for my food, i saw something looking through the gap while i was waiting for my drink! i looked into the gap and ITS HIM! i startled a little and we smiled at each other!! WOOTS!! after 3 weeks=)) happy happy..

REFLECTIONS

some people sneer at my ability to laugh off a serious matter but it doesnt mean i m not serious.. i just want to have a clearer perspective of things..

PS: to those people who say mean things to get my reaction, 1,2,3,4,5 of you.. ANYBODY, please dont do it anymore.. cause it will piss yourself a LOT.. do u guys think that i really do not feel anything? i say, I DO.. but very often, i dont let my emotions get the better of me.. i m DAMN critical when i want to.. but only for the people who are worthy for me to defend them.. i dont speak alot but when i do, i can flood your house (my mum hates me for this! lol.. she dont like me to be critical) my mum doesnt like me to correct her mistakes.. but i do it out of the want for her own good since i dont want her to embarrass herself in front of her friends or sth.. only people who are true to you, corrects you at the risk of your revulsion, if not they just have to sneer at you for being ignorant, anything.. thats is why i cherish alien D. so much because shes ALWAYS correcting my mistakes=) i do cringe at some words some people tell me but i dont get angry because i cant afford to.. the teacher i respected most once said: "anger clouds judgement" 3 simple words, but i take it to heart very seriously. i state my claims, i defend them because they are important to me.. but thats it.. i am open to ur suggestions but if you need my reply, be sure you are of some importance to me=) but then again, its always my POV so theres no much need to be so agitated=) HAHA

2008-11-28T00:10:00.001+08:00

ONGOING REVOLUTION IN ROOM

trespasser will be EXECUTED!

yuci asked me if i have start eating lesser for prom.. i said no right away.. now i learn a new way to keep fit! :D pre-prom exercise - packing a war zone.. its really tiring =(

2008-11-27T20:44:00.003+08:00

在我们的一生之中

会遇到人多人

而谁才是你的另一半

其实一切早已命中注定

2008-11-25T18:55:00.003+08:00

EMOTIONAL

this morning, before i woke up, i already received a task. jr wanted me to send her a file WHICH she didnt know the name, the exact date which it was modified, nor the location! i sent her a file according to her instructions and it was a wrong one -__-" i was very peeved and i was DAMN mean to her when there wasnt a need to do so..

just as i was at the task, mum called.. she asked me to wash the dishes (if any) cause she didnt want me to slack at home doing nothing (meaning watching too much youtube cause you know how glued i can be to the laptop at times) .. i suddenly felt very irritated cause jr's problem was not solved and here comes another..

so i went to the kitchen.. its cleared of dirty dishes BUT i saw a broccoli and fish! living in denial, i went back to sleep=(

daddy cooked lunch for me again today=) i like the stuff that he cooks cause its really simple and stuff.. he called for me to have lunch BUT i headed right to the kitchen and saw the sink.. DANG! he didnt aim properly again=( so i picked up a plastic bag and cleared the sink.. he came in to ask me to do it after lunch since he wanted to cut a pineapple later on (which means MORE MESS) but tears just rolled down my cheeks for the weirdest reason.. between sobs, i told him that if i dont clear, i will get into trouble when mum comes home since she just called in the morning! but somehow, i was alright during lunch already.. it was just very straining at times when things just come one after another without gap to take a breather.. i do up the dishes and packed my swimming bag..

became a coconut again.. at least i felt better and the lemon tea from yakun cheered me up a little so i headed home.. the first thing i did was to go to the kitchen and the pineapple skin was in the trash bag=) my favourite lotus root soup is in the making too! WOOTS!

very seldom would i do such posts but today is an exception i dont know why.. i just didnt feel good at all =( but now.. yeah=)

2008-11-25T00:07:00.003+08:00

saturday's tour

this was the queue at the Expo for the Music Monster Festival. its quite stupid if you can see the zig zag queue.. i didnt wanted to queue up and the person said full house alr so i asked J if she wanted to go Changi! haha we literally toured changi.. below are the pretty pictures of T3!

i like this most.. so class! haha=)

we took the mrt and exited from T2.. searched for Popeye.. cannot find.. and i thought i remembered there was one at T3 despite being very sure that there was one at T1.. and since i havent been to the core of T3, i suggested that we should go there:D went there.. walked one round.. NOTHING much to see=( NO Popeye.. so we went to T1.. and you now how far it is to walk from one end to another while we walked for 3 terminals. at T1.. finally found Popeye.. sat down.. DANG, there was a rong rong queue.. AND J SAID SHE DIDNT WANT TO EAT AT ALL and that she wanted to drink COFFEE BEAN!!! ahhhhhhh.. and she didnt say cause i randomly commented that i got sick of the drinks there and the BEST PART is.. theres coffee bean in both T2 and T3 but not T1!!!! so we took the skytrain for the 100th time back to T2.. -__-"

2008-11-24T23:40:00.003+08:00

my male model in action!

making a new friend, LUMPY=)

engrossed in watching TV

at wheelock's place:D

shivering

handsome boy!

2008-11-21T12:47:00.003+08:00

reflections (7th March 2007 to 21st November 2008)

My JC life has lawfully come to an end. happy? sad? relief? a bit of everything. i hope this is once and for all.. these are too much for me to bear but i m really thankful for all the people who stood by me all these while.. i am a blessed girl, endowed with the best people around, at least i think so=) and i m grateful for their presence.

i remembered how reluctantly i went to school upon checking the results because i know that i will have to start over new.. no more friends from QTSS, no more cliques.. ANEW.. thats how i got started. my first day was horrid.. some messed up combination and the "offer" from the chinese teachers from the school. i swear i know thats when my endeavour for the chinese language of my life ends, at least at JC level.

"yes, you may withdraw from the programme BUT we can kick you out of the SCHOOL" i remember nothing but hot tears flowing down both my cheeks.. i went home, crying.

but it was also that day, i met the man who has a significant impact in my entire JC life - Mr Shankar. it was for him, i took up literature after my former teacher drench the passion i had for lit. teachers are VERY important people. they either MAKE or BREAK you. no joke. he is the legend, we feel his passion for lit, at least thats how i feel, rekindling the hope in me. thanks for being who you are.

those times i feared going to school, he was around, assuring me that everything will be fine, meeting me at the bus-stop, helping me plan my work, merely being there. i did it eventually because he believed in me. his efforts are etched in the left chamber in me, as a protected file which will not be deleted anytime soon.

my first 2 friends: sarah and june. i remembered sticking with sarah during camps and june during the first week of school when the lack of sense of security acts up. they are nice people=)

first friend in A02: JOY AMISHA RIHANNA. listening to her weird logics, guilty of asking her what she sees pointing at a red part on a newspaper when she told me she's colour-blind and crapping=)

clique: you know who you guys are. too mushy to thank ur presence during 3 hour breaks, mundane lessons and whatever. SOMEONE for drawing my paper like its free ( and its really free), another someone for crapping, talking about anything and everything under the sun, this someone who teached me how to/she ditch guys.. HAHA.. and that someone who is so extinct for not having another word from him thats worse than DISGUSTING.

clara: for letting me see you and TICKLING me, saying that you are FEELING me! drawing on my LEG! and i know you are capable of more but you give me face, scared i angry! lol.. but i forgive you for being the only link between me and GRYD.

Prof Goh: always there to heard me out, so patient even when all i need was someone to complain about ANYTHING..

ah ma choy: for the taitai-ing session. for the friendship of 6 years, we have forged. for the silly things we have done. for the countless jokes we have made.

paulnana: for teaching me that its nice to be honest and pure=)

alien D: for the stolen poem you sent me at my darkest. i know you are less talented that i m. HAHAHA.. but dorc, dont steal! haha

and so many of the rest of people who stood by me=) thanks a lot!

daddy: who usually do not speak alot but know so much that got me irritated hearing you and your big ideas, forcing it down my ears. who cooks and WOULD NOT wash the dishes but i am more than willing to do it for you but sometimes your action gets me into trouble with mummy! who take my exams more serious that i do, driving me up and down during exam periods, preparing lunch for me=)

mummy: for always being there when i fall ill, especially during killer headaches, those massages were the motivation to go on. for never ever giving me stress for whatever i am to do, worrying that i will do silly stuff when i dont do well that is. although you dont say anything of it, i know your desire for me to do well.. i may disappoint you but i wont give up on my life.

and for the freedom you gave me be it literal freedom or financial freedom. for trusting $500 bucks to me for pocket money of 3 months when i was sec2 so that i can manage my own money, even though you know that you may have to give me more when i squander it away before time when you dont have to actually (but i didnt disappoint you here!). for offering to pay for my phone and my excessive expenses.. and sometimes, this freedom made me too proud to ask you for more money even when i need them because i know i m taught to manage mine well=) for ur paranoir about me going out with guys! i m sure you can trust me to do what is right=)

sisters: for always offering to bring me shopping just so i will be motivated to study for my exams. for the encouragements through this period of prelims and As itself..

my family is the best gift for me these 18 years..

as of why i say i m blessed. i am borned on the 22nd of feb. i picked up the skills that people are struggling to learn when i was 9. i feel music more than i listen to them. i met pangpang and his dad. i have golden ratio (shrouded by fats) HAHA. and i have my family=)

anyway, i remember this phrase:

"a man who does not share his books is not a man who really love his books."

CALL ME selfish, call me whatever BUT dont take my kiterunner!

2008-11-20T18:47:00.003+08:00

i am in a love-hate relationship with this man

With a sudden movement she bowed his head and joined her lips to his and he read the meaning of her movements in her frank uplifted eyes. It was too much for him. He closed his eyes, surrendering himself to her, body and mind, conscious of nothing in the world but the dark pressure of her softly parting lips. They pressed upon his brain as upon his lips as though they were vehicle of a vague speech; and between them he felt an unknown timid pressure, darker than the swoon of sin, softer than sound or ordour.

-James Joyce

i know not, a second person who may write as well as this but his work is killing my puny brain=( kill me and embrace me in your arms like how you would do it.

2008-11-16T19:17:00.000+08:00

say hi to my cousin, ahmu=) LOL.. dont koop his pic ah!

2008-11-16T17:12:00.005+08:00

everytime i see you drawing near,
the shudders down my spine are clear.
i would like to communicate with you amicably,
but the convulsion multiplies uncontrollably
i told myself "its gonna be alright" over and over.
but ur impending movements,
drives me underneath the basement.
i can see your menacing look,
just like how you'll crush a fly with a book.
everytime you draw near,
i know i just have to stay clear:(

poem title:
STAY AWAY, JOY's bones

above is the poem written by GMX's fats on behalf of their owner. clap for them=)

2008-11-16T15:52:00.003+08:00

下一个天亮

i found a new thing to play with!
1.Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
I DONT CARE, I AM "Leaving on a jet plane"

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
路口?!

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Sometimes when we touch. HA.. i am a FEEL person=D

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Always be my baby. yeah comeon

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I lay my love on you. HAHAHA!

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Breathless. lol. cause i take all their oxygen away -__-"

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Since you've been gone. i wouldnt deny it haha

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
夜访吸血鬼! haha

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
枫

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Never again T_T i know this long ago

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
你

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Goodbye and Hello

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
酸甜

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Take a bow! haha sure get divorced next day

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
海阔天空

WHATS YOUR HOBBY?
幸福的风 -__-"

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
我恨我爱你

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
双牺动物

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
不流泪的机场.. hmmm

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
醉赤壁?!

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
我不知道!! haha.. quite true! lol

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Amazing

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
原点

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
玻璃鞋

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
原谅我

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
黑白配?!

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
一颗心的距离 yeah=(

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
下一个天亮
:DDDD

2008-11-16T11:25:00.006+08:00

DHANAT Plewtianyingthawee

performance at 4!

this video brought tears to my eyes.. i love his composure and how he revealed that innocent smile after the performance is completed because he knows its a job well done! =)

abstract artworks

he is amazing. by looking at his works you will know. the volume that his paintings could offer is, for a lack of a better word, AMAZING. each of them carries very detailed and careful information. i like his perception of colours and the world. and you see how a 4 year old looks at the world through his little mind and body. the results are wonderful.

great fella..

2008-11-16T00:30:00.003+08:00

CRAP..

is really the only literal word that can describe these 3 days.
since geog paper, i was already diarrhoea-ing like xiao.
popped a carbon pill,
ok.. for a while -__-"
it comes back again.
even woke up at 5.30am just to crap and crap and crap=(
very horrible but i told mum,
"its annual spring cleaning"
once done, come again next year.

thanks=)
its kind enough, my stomach wants to do sth to help me lose weight too.
good fella -__-"

2008-11-14T20:38:00.003+08:00

oh and i forgot to mention! after kbox session yesterday, xiaohong don't want me as his idol anymore=( cause he found himself a new one, 10 times more "capable" than i am. *sniffs* (only if you know why i became his idol) haha!

having giddy spells these days for unknown reasons that i left them early yesterday and cabbed home today from HB. the uncle cheat my money! i cabbed 4 bucks before. today i paid like 5.60! *sniffs*

i stupidly saved an empty template change.. redone everything=( so tiring

2008-11-14T11:14:00.004+08:00

I LOVE YOU!!

loving family

genuine and sincere smiles.. lead us on! haha=)
loving man

man is the most goodlooking when.. SERIOUS

i think they are the best gift for america! dont you think so? Mr president, bring us out of this recession=)

2008-11-14T10:21:00.004+08:00

“A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow.”

- William Shakespeare

A foe is one who knows you but hates who you are, misunderstand you all the while, cringe at all the changes in you, and smug secretly when you fail.

- GMX=)

no intention to spoil his quote which i found meaningful but its only one side of reality so i completed it for him..

2008-11-13T22:35:00.004+08:00

behind the glamorous facades,
each shell houses a lonely soul.
sometimes i wish to feel for them,
but i cant, not being them.
maybe no encouragement will do,
when loneliness reigns.
just dont ever try to deny that someone cares,
slash those miseries,
burn the pain,
ignore those queries,
though not with disdain.

why did you do that?
you know your presence is felt.

2008-11-01T00:32:00.002+08:00

once it starts, everything will start rolling.

stop, halt, shucks wont help anymore.

it will just go on and on till its done.

21st nov, i m looking at you.

smile at me.

i will be coming..

officially retired till then.. BYE people=)

2008-10-21T18:01:00.002+08:00

some really random thoughts..

its better to be hurt by the truth than to be comforted by a lie
bye 71, hi 69=)
the irritating thing is coming in less than 2 weeks time..
see you in march, little one=)
death doesnt just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed.
i think i m playing with my future
Just Once is a very nice song.
i wrote a poem for my fats, share it with you some other day=)

2008-10-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

NEW MRT LINES=))

2008-10-15T20:40:00.003+08:00

GMX's favourite songs recommendation

its highly subjective but no harm listening.. different songs gives me different feeling.. but some are just there to stay

songs:

that touches me (not physically thou.. joy knows i hate it! haha)

Hurt (Christina A.)
I dont want to miss a thing (Aerosmith)
I'll grow old with you ( Adam Sandler)
陌生人 (Tanya Chua)
My destiny (Jim Brickman)
Sorry seems to be the hardest word (Blue)
Only Love ( Trademark)
Teardrops on my guitar (Taylor Swift)
The Reason (Hoobastank)
When you look me in the eyes (Jonas brothers)
礼物 (Diya)
Everytime (Britney spears)
Home (Michael Buble)
Sometimes when we touch (Danhill)
Close to you
原谅我 (Jam)
Fixing a broken heart

that gives me tummyache=(

Beautiful love (Tanya Chua)
谢谢 (Wilber Pan)

that i get HIGH while/after listening

Viva la vida (Coldplay)
Tongue-tied (Faber drive)
I'm yours (Jason Mraz)
I am cow (The arrogant worms)
牛仔很忙 (Jay chou)
晨间新闻(Tanya chua)
Accidentally in love (Counting Crows)

that are tear jerkers

傻瓜 (Landy)
街角的祝福 (Penny)
Love me (Colin Raye)
The Rose (Bette Midler)
会呼吸的痛 (Fish Leong)
假装 (Jolin Tsai)
其实还爱你 (阿沁)
Hero (Mariah Carey)
When you're gone (Avril lavigne)
Only human (K)
北极心的眼泪 (ZDL)
蔷蔷 (Ella)
隐形人 (Stefanie Sun)

still got lots! but ya.. thats enough for now=)

2008-10-15T20:33:00.001+08:00

请不要分了以后还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐不是我爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流我怕说不出口
原谅我没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我爱原来要舍得

我难过

我才懂

2008-10-13T23:02:00.003+08:00

just once..

i want to bump into you at my weakest..

so that i can put down my pride and cry like an arse

hug you so hard that you cant breathe

seal it up so you will listen to what i have to say,

for once

thats all i am asking for

i hope you were a little smarter..

我以为你懂得, 每当我看着你

2008-10-10T23:07:00.003+08:00

went kbox with DJ today.. JEC is gonna close down on or after 19th oct =( i think its a part of a bigger plan.. so we may anticipate newer, bigger, nicer building=)

after that followed by a swim.. i guess swimming is getting hard to sustain now..

entrance fee $3.20 + locker $0.40 = total $3.60.. it used to be a 50 cent sport 8 years ago.. HAHAHA!!!

tmr.. going to zaid's house.. you know his mum cooks GOOD satay! haha=)) alright.. need to go and do 10000 push up and sit ups for the satay (HAHA).. alright ciao!

2008-10-07T16:31:00.003+08:00

i had a bad day.. a real bad one.. i just keep wondering what could happen next.. forunately i am safe and sound at home now.. but dont be surprised if you read the newspapers tmr that a girl is struck by lightning at home.. it may be me.. i dont think i can feel anyworse.. but i am not prepared to cry.. my "lucky" star.. saw him SO many times today.. happy, mixed, whatever.. i just got SO unlucky from the moment i step into school..

she ask me not to cry, i was short of saying.. "dont worry i wont, not in front of you" but i dont hate her, still.. so many people calls her the bitch but i still do not feel the urge and need to.. just that i felt really lousy especially after the "issue" with Iago..

things just didnt go in my way the whole of today.. but its ok.. after this, i think nothing can be worse for a school day.. or a day for that matter..

there are moments i feel weak and lousy,

and i hope that you were here, standing by me

telling me that everything's gonna be alright,

give me a push and charge me up

so that i can break the fall and pick myself up..

2008-10-06T22:28:00.002+08:00

i am waiting.. waiting and

WAITING for 魔杰座 !!

gonna dash to any nearest CD-selling place to GRAB it..

voice of desperation

i am never this enthu..

because he is scheming..

by releasing a song first! HAHA

i am liking this post because its RED and BLACK! woots! =))

2008-10-06T22:02:00.006+08:00

CREDITS: CHEEX's blog=)

i thank her so big cause i found a way to fufill my childhood's dream! =))

the legendary MONEY-FACE..

my dear boy, you have made it BIG!! i love you!!

prez of the ulu ulu empire..

tune in to channel GMX

2008-10-03T21:02:00.001+08:00

diarrhoea, followed by gastric..

naughty stomach.. poor me..

2008-10-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

ooohhh...

what if i never knew
what if i never found you
i never had
this feeling in my heart

how did this come to be
i dont know how you found me
but from the moment i saw you
deep inside my heart i knew

chorus:
baby your my destiny
you and i were meant to be
with all my heart and soul
ill give my love to have and hold
and as far as i can see
you were always meant to be
my destiny

oooohhhhh
i wanted someone like you
someone that i could hold on to
and give my love until the end
of time

oohhh
but forever was just a word (just a word)
something id only heard about
but now youre always there for me
when you say forever i believe

chorus:
baby your my destiny
you and i were meant to be
with all my heart and soul
ill give my love to have and hold
and as far as i can see
you were always meant to be
my destiny

oooooohhhh

baby all we need
is just a little faith
cuz baby i believe
that love will find a way

heyyyyyyyy

ohhh

baby your my destiny
you and i were meant to be
with all my heart and soul
ill give my love to have and hold
and as far as i can see
from now until eternity
you were always meant to be

2008-09-30T23:48:00.010+08:00

a day out with the "twins"

no life kids, playing on swing at the age of 18..

my legs are obviously too long for this thing already=(

choy and the toilet bowl she discovered.. and all of us gave it a TRY.. ahah

fun can be cheap and priceless at the same time=) thanks girls=)) LOVE LOVE=)

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GMX is very poor thing today.. she got a diarrhoea early in the morning after a dreamy night.. the dream goes as follows..

i was at home, watching tv.. saw my cousin's MV?! ok next, i went into the room and saw my friends, including Z who was with a moustache! haha.. next.. i went into this 3 storey private property and opened a door.. in the room was FULL of cd collection! then i appeared in this shopping centre where this guy was chasing after me in circles with this blunt knife that i have to run and push things to block him.. WEIRD.. i think i must have thought too much these days..

after the many dreams of him.. i told myself, i will meet him after the 222nd dream of him.. so i shall start counting.. HAHA! =)

2008-09-28T21:39:00.007+08:00

HAMILTON THE HANDSOME GUY!

whoa.. the F1 is really taxing.. got a headache from watching it.. i salute the drivers!

i like lewis hamilton in 2 days! haha=) he is amazing.. read his story!

he is another example of a dream come true.. at 10, he told the team principal of McLaren Dennis that he want to race for the team.. and he really did so 12 years later!! that amazing boy is really cute..

Räikkönen is a handsome"old" man.. some call him the iceman but its damn sad for him! he crashed at the 57th lap?! if i were him i will start crying=((

but i think i take pity on massa the most.. he was in the first placing when the race flagged off until he stopped at the pit stop where he drove off with the fuel pipe attached to his car! its like?! how can they allow this to happen?! =(( and he finished the race second from the last=(( GRRR..

racing is all about endurance and whose car crashes before you.. its unpredictability is saddening at times.. i hope all goes well for hamilton after he lost his second placing due to this hiccup=( get it back boy! WOOHOO!! =))

update:

HAMILTON wins the 3rd placing!!! WOOHOO!!! after Alonso(1st) and Rosberg(2nd) guy.. the race is too dramatic for any faint hearted! =((

CAN YOU IMAGINE IT TOOK PLACE IN SINGAPORE?!

i cant.. but it did!

2008-09-27T21:33:00.005+08:00

i am not afraid of being judged because i am a human being,

i make mistakes,

hell load of them..

i get pissed,

i get dishonest,

i get evil..

i am not a nice person and i am constantly reminded

i hate confrontations

i hate loud speakers

i hate it when people give condescending stares..

i went harbour front today.. i saw this boy/man with down syndrome.. i came back from the washroom and he was standing somewhere in front of me while i was walking towards my table.. he looked into my eye, i smiled at him.. happily, he said "HELLO!" and waved at me.. i returned the gesture and went back to my seat.. he was seated, rather near my table, with his parents.. from time to time when i looked up, he became so excited, whispered hello and waved at me.. i smiled at him and GUESS what.. this 2 stupid women were like laughing like some idiots.. they STARED at me, looked back at the guy and laughed in unison.. i am disgusted.. i hate it cause they are laughing at him.. but whatever for? its bad enough that they dont feel for the less fortunate but why look down on them?! before they left, they STARED at him and laughed so loudly that i hope that they can never to so ever again! screw those morons! but anyway, that guy was really cute.. when he was about to leave, he came to my side, caught my attention and said "BYEBYE!!" and i gave him a big wide smile and waved at him.. i like the way he laughed when i said bye to him.. so innocent and pure=)

and i hate it when people STARE at people with disabilities.. why make people feel uncomfortable with themselves.. when they had managed to overcome it with so much struggle.. curiosity is innate but practice it with discreet towards the less fortunate, please..

on a lighter note,

2 strangers smiled at me today=) what about you?

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i dreamt of him last night.. a very sweet dream.. very very sweet.. but this is the greatest indication that heart and mind doesnt work co-operatively.. my mind has been working so hard to expel those thoughts.. but my heart brought me those dreams.. these thoughts are occasionally welcomed though because i am sure i woke up with a smile this morning..

1801< - be sure to report if not it will slip my mind

2008-09-27T01:11:00.005+08:00

unintentionally or otherwise..

for whatever you have said,

i do not wish to comment

but i am pretty disturbed

quit trying to make me react the way you wish, for i may just piss you off damn badly

so please leave me with some quietness..

AND stop appearing to be the blue blood of mankind cause you are just another selfish earthling..

just

DISAPPEAR!

2008-09-22T20:25:00.006+08:00

feeling - a little groggy

nose - a little runny

tummy - a little queasy

head - a little crampy

limbs - a little jelly

mind - a little silly..

Moral: I am sick=(

to cast away the sickness, i found GRYD's pic yesterday! PLUS his birthday.. i am a professional stalker.. PISCES and TAURAS together gether.. HAHA.. i am happy.. so happy!

anyway i went to my cousin's album launch at MICA building (the one with colourful windows) last saturday.. it was quite fun.. but him, being one of the "older" cousins i have, means that i am not close to him AT ALL.. so throughout the thing, i was bothering his brother, who was my math tutor in sec4.. and he entertained me=) quite fun still=)

ATTENTION people!

i have received this msg from CT, informing of the affected foodstuff in Singapore..

M&Ms (i am suffering)
Magnum
Snickers
Mentos yoghurt bottle
Dove chocolate
Monmilk
Dutchlady sterilised milk
Walls all natural mango
Mini poppers
Moo sandwich ice cream
Mini Cornetto
Youcan icecream
White Rabbit Creamy Candy!!!!

take care people, fight MELAMINE (used to make fertilisers.. in my SNACKS!!!!) omg.. this is so real.. cause i saw this N**C staff with a memo board, STARING hard at the chocolates.. and the above mentioned chocos were nowhere to be seen=( hope this will blow over soon..

anyway, if anything about MILK is wrong in Singapore, look at yukai, scrutinize him.. if he is still alive and kicking, i think the milk products are still good enough to be consumed=)

thanks CT for informing=))

2008-09-18T18:11:00.005+08:00

so much so for saying that i will slack lesser.. I AM BACK!! with some random pics..

LOVE, is when you look in the same direction=)

as yk was chatting blissfully with his laogong, his mistress popped out from behind, STEALTHILY!!!

mistress acts emo (like how the norm always does it), and he GETS it.. cause yk noticed him=)

then.. it became like that.. (laogong got cast aside.. sad sad)

awkward fingers: attempted to cover the words..

SUNSET=))

resort-like poolside

my male model=)

i THOUGHT it was sth ELSE! haha

2008-09-15T23:37:00.002+08:00

GOING ON HIATUS

things are more or less settling in.. after the 1.5 year of restlessness, i think i am feeling the THING coming.. after the initial months, thinking of "this and that" (if you know, you know) , i am abiding by the promise i have made to him/her/them/they and also the promise i have made to myself.. no more BOOHOOS.. growing up in progress=) now, GMX is a good kid, fervently attending consultations.. not at all more hard working YET.. cause there are just so many distractions for my scattered brain.. working hard to build up my muscles and expelling fats.. i want to be a healthy girl.. thats about 5-6 kg more for me=) which means +4kg of muscle and -9kg of fats.. oh no.. i think i am going to become a body builder! but i guess i am the slackiest dieter around cause i have lost a few kgs feeding on fastfood, CHIPS, sweet drinks and chocolates=)) if i had the self control, i guess things will be MUCH easier and faster.. BUT who CARES! yeahyeah.. so i guess i will be working out more and slacking less.. PLUS a little addition of studying and such.. but be sure i will pop by some day or another to update on the bestEST of my mundane life!

My only motivation currently: i dont want to sweep the roads..

alrights.. time to sink myself into my bed! CIAO=)

2008-09-15T17:20:00.001+08:00

this is damn damn damn damn FUNNY!! watch it! you wont regret.. i promise!